- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
Bees, I’m tired.
I’ve had so many health problems come up in my short life, and to be honest, it’s getting to me. I’ll start from the beginning. When I was about 11, I started having inexplicable joint pain. I went from doctor to doctor for years and none of them could figure out what was wrong. Finally, after 6 years of frustration, I received a diagnosis: fibromyalgia. This began a long and ultimately unrewarding search for medication that would treat my symptoms. Thankfully, I’m now treating the fibro with some diet changes and stretches and that seems to help a little.
Next, I started getting ear problems. My left ear gets infected constantly, and even when it’s not it oozes either blood or a weird clearish brown liquid. Antibiotic drops don’t work and my general physician is stumped. I go to an otolaryngologist for the second time soon, but I don’t feel very optimistic.
Then, last August, I started having really bad abdominal pain. Four doctors and countless tests later, I got a tentative diagnosis of endometriosis. I had a laparoscopy in March to confirm, during which they not only found the endo, but they also found two pretty large ovarian cysts and they found out that my appendix (for inexplicable reasons) was completely encased in scar tissue. They lasered off the endo and took out the cysts and my appendix, and the doctor said that, while the endo would probably reoccur, I should have some pain relief for at least a few months. Only, I didn’t. Instead, I got maybe a week of relief after I healed from the surgery before I started hurting again. I’m tired of doctors, but I should probably go back and ask my GYN about the pain again…
And now my final problem. I have a lump on the back of my neck. It’s not quite two inches long and maybe an inch wide. It doesn’t hurt that much by itself, but it makes my arm and head hurt. Went to my doctor about it, and he said it was probably a muscle that had spasmed and wouldn’t release and gave me a muscle relaxer. But the muscle relaxer isn’t working and now I’m getting scared.
I’m so tired of all of this. My body constantly hurts, I’m exhausted all the time, and I’m terrified that there’s something seriously wrong that’s being overlooked by my doctors. I’ve been hurting for the past 10 years of my life and with that and all these other things that have come up, I’m just overwhelmed.
If you’re still reading this, I commend you. This is overly long and I feel like I’m just whining about my problems, but I need to get all this out and although my friends and family have heard most of this, they don’t seem to understand how much this is getting to me.