- 2 months ago
My last thread was marked as spam so I apologize if it pops up later.
I’ve been in my current position for about a year and a half, but have been applying seriously for other jobs for the last 4 months or so. It was my first job after going back to school, so I wanted to stick it out for at least a year, but I knew early on it wasn’t a good fit. There was no training, no reference material, strictly internal processes and systems that I couldn’t look up online, and my manager and I had a really strained relationship.
It eventually came to a head when the head of the department came down on my manager for not training me. I was able to piece together the duties of my position by shadowing the manager, but I learn by doing and not watching, so it was a struggle. I’ve never cried so much over a job before in my life. My manager had been taking ownership of my proejcts because he felt it was faster to do things himself than train someone, he verbalized how much he hated training me, micromanaged me, called me slow, etc etc.
He asked me to lie to the head of the department and say he had trained me on certain things, he would ask me to memorize sentences to say in meetings (this one particularly pissed me off), and moments before my annual review he asked me not to say anything negative about him.
To be honest, taking the job and staying for this long, even though I was transitioning fields and thought it was so important to stick with it, has been one of my biggest regrets. I eventually had to go to the doctor when I started to develop hand tremors at work whenever I had to interact with him.
Last week I was told that my manager is leaving the company and I’m being promoted to manager – when I have no clue how to do my job let alone his job. I’ve been feeling so sick to my stomach all weekend, and I’m dreading going back to work. I’m not in the position to quit without something else lined up, so I feel very stuck. They didn’t even ask me if I wanted to be promoted, no talk of a raise, expectations, etc. And there’s been so much turnover that the department would be down to 2 people total.
I have no plans to stop looking elsewhere, and I’m not sure what I’m looking for here. Has anyone been given a promotion they were unprepared for? Turned down a promotion and didn’t get fired for it? Any advice is very appreciated.