- 5 years ago
- Wedding: July 2015
Last week S.O was in training for his ATC (authorization to carry) license so that he can start a new job working for the armored division of his security company, and on Sunday he officially passed the course and became certified. He doesn’t have the job yet, because the company is still awaiting confirmation that they will get a certain contract, but he’ll be getting the next spot on the trucks because of his seniority with the company and will definitely have a position with them by September.
I’m trying so hard to be supportive of him, because I know that he is happy and has wanted the armored gig since he started with the company, but for the past week I have been anxious and miserable. It’s not even the danger factor that bothers me the most (in my area there hasn’t been any incidents involving armed security guards in over 16 years, and there have actually been more attacks on unarmed guards like my SO). My biggest concern is the hours, because he’ll be going from scheduled shift work to on-call duties with long hours (at this company, they don’t just drive the trucks, they do all the administrative work back at the office too)
I feel awful, because I know S.O can see the stress I’m feeling. I mean, geez, I’ve had at least three breakdowns right in front of him. He’s been a total sweetheart through it though; he keeps reminding me that it’s only a temporary thing, and that we’ll still get to see each other and that he’ll be coming home safe every night.
I’m just at a loss- I don’t want to keep feeling this anxious and getting emotional in front of him, or having this play on my mind when I’m at work. I just want to be happy for him 🙁