- 6 years ago
Ok, this year alone, my 2nd cousin got married, a girlfriend from highschool got married, another girlfriend got engaged, and in the last three weeks…two cousins got engaged and one friend. That’s 6…6 in 6 months.
It’s so hard to be happy for them. I’m almost 32!! They’re all younger than me. My boyfriend is almost 36, and while we have been together almost a year, I’m wondering what the hold up is. We’re in love, he lives here on the weekends, we’ve looked at rings…we’re getting older. So if we know we love each other, and want to share our lives, why wait any longer? I don’t care about getting married right away, i really don’t. I just want the committment that an engagement brings. I’ve told him this, and we had a great convo about it, but he did say…he wants to take it slow. That just because he’s almost 36 doesn’t mean he has to rush it.
I’m really NOT trying to be hard on him, but come on dude…you’ve been a bachelor your whole life, what’s the hold up? The only hint I got from him today was asking him if he was thinking about a proposal…he said yes.
Perhaps I’m being impatient, and I probably am…but when you see three proposals in the last two weeks, it really really gets to you. Especially when you know the relationship is headed that way. What really got to me was that the one friend who did get engaged last night…her and her boyfriend have been dating maybe 6-7 months, they’re living together, and have had a fairy tale romance…they’re so happy together. Why can’t I have that? Why do I have to be the girl who found a stubborn pig headed bachelor who wants to take things really slow?
ugh. sorry if this is all jumbled and not making sense…I am happy in our relationship, I love my boyfriend, and I know our relationship is headed towards a lifetime commitment, but I just want the reassurance. He does it by his actions. He wont tell me he wants to spend his life with me, he feels stuff like that is best said when he proposes. So I have to figure out everything by how he is acting and doing things with me and my kids.
UGH! and I’m just venting, I won’t do anything or complain to him, or ruin what surprises he might have, i just needed to get the engagement thing off my chest, because I certainly can’t gripe to him that I’m bummed out I’m not engaged yet, or near to being engaged.