- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
To give a little background, my mother has suffered with depression since I was about 6 years old. She became an alcoholic when I was about 9 years old. Since then, she has been in & out of jail, rehab, halfway houses, in & out of the hospital with more suicide attempts than I can count. She has totaled 3 cars drunk driving. Anyway, I have had a lot of her stuff in a storage unit of mine for about a year & a half now. I’m moving next month after my wedding, and have been trying to resolve it with her, because I can’t take it with me. She initially was going to put it in her name when she came down for my wedding next month. But she just texted me out of the blue..
Mom: Sell my stuff and keep the money yourself.
Mom: I don’t want anything anymore. I have nowhere to go and nobody wants me around so just sell it! Your sister won’t even talk to me!
Me: I don’t want to just sell your stuff.
Mom: I’m not going to be here long! I can’t do this anymore!
Me: What do you mean?
Mom: I love you 🙂
Me: I love you too, are you okay?
Mom: I am so sorry for hurting you the way that I have. I’m sick and don’t want to be this way anymore!
Me: you need to go to the hospital and tell somebody you are feeling like this.
Mom: I will, dont do anything!
Me: What do you mean?
Mom: I don’t know! I’m going crazy thinking about papaw all day! (My grandfather, that just passed away in June)
Me: He’s in a better place now, you & I both know that..
..that’s where it ends for now. The reason my sister won’t talk to her is because she gets upset because my sister won’t go pick her up and bring her back here. My sister is newly engaged, expecting a baby, she doesn’t have room. Even if she did, mom lived with her before and would get drunk, start fights, take off in her car, etc. We are just fed up with dealing with it all of the time. Since she has moved to another part of the state, where all her family lives, she has made death threats to them, been drinking, leaving my sick grandparents alone because she takes off drunk in their car. Sadly, my grandfather passed away just 2 weeks after being placed in a nursing home, because the social worker found out about my mom running off and leaving them alone, so they couldn’t be in her care anymore. I feel crazy putting all of this out there, but I am having a hard time dealing with all of this while trying to plan this wedding & move. I cry sometimes because I wish that things could be better with my mom.. I have gone to AA meetings with her for support, I took money to her and visited her when she was in jail. I signed for her to get out of jail, and took her in and took care of her when I could barely take care of myself. This has just been my life for as long as I can remember and it’s so much to deal with. I have put myself out there as much as I can and it seems like she doesn’t truly want to change. 🙁
If you read all of this, you are a trooper..