Post # 166
I like that idea, that you get the baby you’re meant to in the end
I had that kind of pregnancy with my first. I felt GREAT, and was so blissfully ignorant that anything bad would happen. I knew about miscarriage of course but just never thought it would be me. It makes me sad that the next pregnancy won’t be so happy and carefree 🙁 you’re right though, no matter how long we wait, u til I get past 10 weeks again I won’t feel safe. It makes sense that you’re in a kind of denial, because unfortunately miscarriage shows you that being pregnant doesn’t always mean you’ll end up with a baby 🙁
Post # 167
I just saw this message, therefore sorry for the late reply. I wanted to move on so that it wouldn’t hurt anymore. I’m still angry towards pregnant women or women with babies, which is wrong I know, and deep down I do feel happy for them, but i also feel pain in my heart and stomach.
So for self protecion, I started pretending I moved on. Meanwhile I got tested for FSH and AMH, got a high result for both. 9.8 FSH and 3.55 AMH. My OBGYN explained FSH as the quality/youth/ state of the eggs and according to some charts I got the quality of eggs of a 45 year old and higher, when I’m currently 34 yo. And for AMH she explained as the quantitiy/numbers of eggs and mine seem to be as high as a 20 yo. Weird and conflicting results. She reccommnded IVF we don’t have any money for that. So I kept tracking my ovulation and kept trying every month.
Just found out that my 39 yo sister is pregnant with her second. And she kept it from me cause she didn’t know how to tell me, and aparently she’s 4 months pregnant and everything is fine, the genetic tests are all fine. And I’m supposed to feel purely happy at this moment but I feel so much anger and sadness that makes me feel like a horrible person. Just wanted to share. Will probably post this to a more appropriate topic/channel. But anyways. Thanks for reading.
Post # 168
Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): ttc
MC History: had my first baby with zero issue. we then had a 6/7 week loss, followed by a 12 week loss (mmc at 6/7 week mark). then we had a semi healthy pregnancy but an empty sac was found accompanying my youngest. they suspect a lost twin. and last cycle we had a 5 weeks loss.
Issues (if any): unknown
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): nothing.
Link to chart:
What are your biggest challenges right now? mild health issues with my eldest