- 6 years ago
- Wedding: April 2012
Hi Bees! I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long, but I’m happy to report that Justin is doing well. He has been in the ICU for 2 months, but he is scheduled to be transferred to a rehab hospital today (fingers crossed!)
For those of you who aren’t familiar with my story, my husband was hit by a vehicle while riding his bicycle home from work on December 3rd. He sustained a severe traumatic brain injury and several broken bones. Justin has had 5 surgeries since his accident, including one to remove a part of his skull to decrease pressure in his brain. He recently had a synthetic implant put in to replace the skull bone they took out and he is doing well.
Justin has a tracheotomy just days after his accidcent to protect his airway, so he remains unable to speak. But he can write! He knows who he is, who I am, who his family is, and he is able to have a conversation with me by writing. It’s amazing how far he has come.
I am so thankful that Justin is still with us and I’m able to see him every day. He’s able to tell me he loves me and hold my hand. Even still, it’s been the most difficult 2 months of my life, as you can imagine. We have a long road ahead of us, but I have hope that Justin will return home eventually.
This brings me the tough situation facing me now. Many of you know that my husband and I had been trying unsuccesfully to get pregnant for 4 months before his accident.
Yesterday, I found out that my sister in law is pregnant with her second child. This is especially hard for me because when my husband’s accident happened I was in the two week wait. My sister in law had flown in to see her brother during that horrible time, and I told her that I was waiting to find out if I was pregnant. Now I find out that she was already pregnant at the time.
I want to be happy for her, but right now I’m hurting over how unfair the whole situation is. I don’t know if Justin will ever recover enough to go back to work, let alone have children. I really like my sister in law, but I don’t think she has any idea how hard it’s going to be for me to see her go through this pregnancy.
She’s coming to visit next weekend and I agreed to let her stay with me. Before I was looking forward to it, now I’m dreading it. I can’t decide if I should tell her how I feel or just try to ignore it. I’m afraid she’ll think I’m being cold towards her if I don’t want to talk about her pregnancy, but I’m also afraid that I’ll burst into tears if she brings it up. I would love your advice, bees.