Post # 1
There’s been a lot of emotion & anticipation surrounding my current condition so I figure I’d post an update & explain what has been going on so that it doesn’t take over any other threads (CHARTERS!!).
Last tuesday I went for a beta HcG which showed my levels were at 34 @ 18DPO. My doctor & I were concerned by how low they were so I had another blood draw today (24DPO); they had only risen to 57.
Emotionally, this past week has been a rollercoaster. When I got my initial beta results I was understandably very upset. I cried for hours but eventually talked myself out of the negative thoughts I was having. I felt pregnant for the remainder of the week so I stayed positive. When my temperature dropped on Saturday I knew that miscarriage was imminent. My pregnancy symptoms were gone so I just waited around to start bleeding. When it didn’t come I was surprised and hopeful.
Sunday I began spotting but tried to minimise my negative thoughts since it wasn’t a lot and the colour wasn’t red, and my temperature was still high. Since Monday, however, the blood has become brighter and more abundant. It is clear at this point that my pregnancy is not viable and that I am currently miscarrying.
I appreciate the support all you ladies have given me. At the moment I am upset but to be honest, much less so than I was last Wednesday. I feel I have already grieved this loss over the past week and am now rather spent. I look forward to having this over with, and going forward with TTC this cycle.
As for my non TTC life; I’ve put it on hold. My doctor has given me a note to defer my upcoming exams. It writes “Threatened Abortion” in large letters across the front (which doesn’t faze me). I hope the administration understands that’s not voluntary. I have cancelled practices for the high school team I coach, which I feel so guilty about. I just am not in a stable enough state to lead them (Last Wednesday I broke down crying right before we started). I’m going to take some time for myself & then pick up the pieces.
Anyway, thank you for listening!
Post # 3
Sorry to hear, my thoughts are with you right now. Glad you are taking care of yourself right now.
Post # 4
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@MrsRugbee: Oh honey! I’m so sorry to hear that those are the results :(. I’m glad your doctor is trying to get you out of your exams for now. I’m here for you if you ever need to talk.
Post # 5
@MrsRugbee: Oh honey. I am SO SO sorry. Life can be so unfair. Sending much love and hugs to you and your Darling Husband, and I’ll be praying for peace, comfort and healing for you both. XOXOXOXOXOXOX
Post # 6
So sorry. It sounds like you are on the right path to recovery. Take care of yourself.
Post # 7
@MrsRugbee: I am so sorry for your loss. I had an early MC at 6w3d at the end of February. We got our BFP after 9 cycles of TTC. It’s devastating no matter how long you’ve tried, but it was like an extra kick in the gut for me. I took 2.5 weeks off of work and was basically a hermit the whole time. I didn’t want to go anywhere or do anything. I stayed in bed a lot of the time. It was my way of grieving the loss of our baby. Although the pain eased as each day came and went, it is still there today and I am sure it will never go away. Along with my Darling Husband and family, the ladies here on the Bee have offered the upmost support during one of the most difficult times in my life. Miscarriage is not something a lot of women talk openly about, for obvious reasons; but just know you are not alone and we are all here to support you during this time.
Take as much time as you need. My thoughts are with you. If you need to talk or have any questions please PM me. *Big hugs* xoxoxo
Post # 8
So sorry to hear 🙁 I’m glad you are taking some time for yourself – a lot of people would try to push through and end up breaking down later, and much worse. Sending positive vibes to you for your next cycle TTC!
Post # 9
I am so so sorry, lady. Sending love and prayers to you and your Darling Husband.
Post # 10
((((HUGS)))) i am so sorry you’re going through this. i’m so sad for you. i’m glad you’re taking time out for yourself and you’ve been able to grieve. we’re all here for you.
Post # 11
I’m so sorry dear. Like I said in the other thread, I lost one at 6 weeks not that long ago. Let me know if you have questions or need to talk.
Post # 12
I’m sooo sorry! My thoughs and prayers to you and DH!
Post # 13
Big hugs. I’m glad you’re taking some time for yourself, and I hope you’ll bounce back fast. Never feel bad for sharing here or in the charters thread. We care about you and want to know how you’re doing.
Post # 14
I am so sorry lovey. 🙁 I pray that you have peace and comfort in knowing that all that happens, does for a reason and your body knows this as well. It hurts, and we’re all so saddened for you, but good things will come your way soon dearest. Much love to you and your husband. You are a very strong woman and I know that you will get your sticky baby, and live happily ever after soon enough. <3
Post # 15
I am so, SO sorry to hear about what you’re going through. Please know we are always here for you. Take care of yourself, hun!
Post # 16
So sorry to hear. Take care of yourself and we’re all here if you need us.