- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2011
Hello Bees! I have been a long time watcher on here, and have only posted a few times. My Darling Husband and i will have been married for 2 years tomorrow :). We have been actively TTC for about a year to a year and a half. My cycles have been highley irregular from cylcles being 27 days to 35-40 days, and some cyles i wasnt sure if i was ovulating or not. I have been pretty upbeat about everything telling myself it will happen when the time is right. But then i got the news that was a little hard to swollow…
My 18 year old sister, who just got in a relationship w/ her boyfriend, was pregnant. I took the news okay, of course a little upset, thinking how can it come so easily to her, and so hard for me. why is she pregnant and wasnt trying, but im trying and not. the usual thoughts of a person TTC thinks about when she finds out someone is expecting and you still are not. i quickly got over that part. A little side note: i am the oldest out of 3 girls, my middle sister is 7 years younger than i am, and my youngest sister is 8 years younger than i am. The sister I am talking about is my youngest sister. Of course being the oldest girl i was looking forward to having the first grandbaby. Since my sister took that spot light off of me, I was hoping at least that the baby would be a girl, so that was i could at least have the first boy on my side.
Last week my sister went to the doctors they did the ultra sound and they said it was a girl. I was super excited, it was girl everything was going great! And then they went back for the 3D ultra sound today, and found out it was a BOY!!! 🙁
I was devistated today! I had such a hard time dealing with it, i even left work early today because of it. I just felt like I was at my lowest point of this whole TTC thing. Its been such a rollercoaster just by itsself, and now my sister adds on all this stress. I just broke down. I couldnt help myself, it was kind of the last straw. I came home, slept some of the day, watched TV and that was about it.
My Darling Husband has been a great supporter through all of this. He has had my back, and kept my spirits up about it all. He is truely a great man, and i couldnt ask for anyone better to take care of me, and the future dad of my babies one day.
I logged onto WB today after my self pitty day, and started to read some stories on here. It really has been a mood changer for me. I have read the ups and downs and it really got me thinking. My situation could be a lot worse, and it could be a lot better. I am thankful for what I have. I have also learned from reading everyones blogs that there are things out there I can try, and it gave me hope.
Tomorrow is a new day, and a new start on our journey TTC. Me and Darling Husband are going to start taking better care of ourselves, he is going to go to the doctors to get a check up, and i am going to make an appt at my gyno so i can see if there is anything else i need to do. Until then i plan on making the best of this summer, and making plans, since hopefully it will be my last summer baby free 🙂
I guess my whole point of writing this tonight is to thank all you Bees out there! Please continue to share your stories, you never know who you will touch. So thank you again for sharing your stories, the ups and the downs, and the good and the bad stories. You just never know whoh is in your same shoes, and just need to know someone else out there is going through the same thing you are. Your stories have truely helped me, and continue to help me, and im sure a lot of other Bees out there that you may not even know! 🙂