- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011
OK, this might get rambling – sorry in advance.
So, here’s the deal. DH and I got married in June. Since last September, we have been together ALL the time, except for 3-4 nights, twice, for our bach parties. But, during his, I was able to stay with family to get alot of wedding DIY done.
We have now moved to a new city so I can go to college. I have classes 2 nights a week, and 2 classes online. It’s an MBA program, so its intense. DH doesn’t work – he’s a 100% disabled veteran. I don’t have a job or internship – just college. So we are together 98% of the time, and have become interdependant on each other.
To make it worse, I have zero friends out here. ZERO. We have finally found a church that works for us, but we’ve only been once. All of my classmates have jobs, and families, or are in the last year of a 5 year program, so there is a large age gap. I’m not in any gym classes, and they are out of budget anyways. We live 30 minutes from the city, and I really feel uncomforatable going down to random places to hear poetry or jazz or anything like that. I’m one of those who has always had trouble making friends. Nor will I go to a bar alone just to try to make friends – too scary with wierd random guys.
Hunting camp is 9 days total. I have stalled on buying tickets, and when DH confronted me, I finally told him that I was stalling because I was dreading being alone for 9 days. Thankfully its Amtrak and Greyhound tickets, so the price increase of the delay is only $10. DH’s idea is to have my Mom come and stay with me while he’s gone. She lives 3 hours away, and we only have one bed. So, no. Or his other idea is for me to go to my parents – but I have class in the middle of the week that he’s gone, so again, won’t work.
And the last, and hardest part, is he can’t come home early. He is taking the bus to a midway point, and then a hunting buddy is driving him to camp. There is no public transit to anywhere near camp – the meetup point is still 4 hours away. He then can’t get back to the meetup point for 9 days. And because this is off the gri and the generator is only run a few hours each day, we get to talk for 15 mins once a day.
What my issue is, is the huge 180 from being together 100% all the time, to going to being alone for 9 days. I feel like it’s a cold turkey move, and i’m scared. I don’t want him not to go – he talks about nothing else, and I know he is excited. I’m happy that he has something that he is excited about. I just am having a hard time dealing with the idea of being alone.
So yeah, I’m not sure how to feel or what to do right now. Its really sad.