- 5 years ago
What a weekend…. now feeling totally crappy!!
It all started on Friday and we were cuddled up watching some rom-com. He turned to me and said “aww, I didn’t know I was marrying someone so soppy!” It has been months since he has made any comments like this so I turned to him and said “Oh really..?” Then he said “Well you know end up with…” I then said “Why change what you said?” to which he replied in a very jokingly manner “You know I will marry you…. when I get round to it.”
Then on Sunday we were in town looking around and I just couldn’t help myself. He said he wanted to look for boots and then asked if there was anything I wanted to look at. I said – “How about something sparkly?” and then he was like “you’re not desperate for it are you? What is the point in looking now as anything they have will be gone..! Aren’t you happy? etc etc.”
I said “Ok, but what is the harm in looking?” He then went well “It is never looking with you! But we can..”.
We went in to a jewellers and then he took me over to the watches and went jokingly again.. “Well isn’t this what you wanted to look at?” I just said “It is fine you don’t want to let’s just go home!” He was well into joker mode by then so went “just be patient it”s only been 3 and something, nearly four years”. I just replied with “I may be many things and inpatient isn’t one of them!” He knew he was winding me up and loving it….
We ended up looking at a few rings but it was totally awkward….
I am totally pissed off.. We always talked about marriage and kids and I thought we were on the same page. Especially after a conversation we had a few months ago where he said ‘He’d want to propose this year but it is only money and work stopping him because of our rent and his job’ – now his job is sorted I thought we’d get things moving….
I just don’t know what to think/feel now. We have always lived together as we got together when we were housemates. We have been together for 4 years next month and lived by ourselves for 3years. I have been sticking to the SIUP for the past 8 months with the odd slip up where we will talk about it and then I go back on it… So conversations have been less. But I really thought we were on the same page….
Totally GUTTED!! Broke the SIUP pack after 77 days and for what?
Sorry. Rant over!