- 8 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
So I had to vent somewhere and poor Fiance didn’t need to hear it.
So to start out I had TWO very important tests this morning, which I passed but still, highly stressful, then I had a meeting I had to be at, no biggie. Well after my meeting I went to the store to get stuff because I was now making dinner for Vday. Since we’re both students neither Fiance or I have much extra money lying around for stuff like Vday but Fiance literally had $5 in his checking account this morning. Which meant the amazing dinner out and a movie he had planned for me was out. And it sounds pathedic but I was really looking forward to it, and getting flowers. We aren’t big on romantic gestures but I was very excited about this one day where he was going to be romantic.
Instead I spent ALL afternoon seriously, about 5 hours, making home-made bread, chocolate cake, from scratch frosting and strawberry filling, steak and fried shrimp and salad for him. I cleaned my apartment all up, candles, the whole bit. I thought he would really like it because it was all his favorite foods. Well he shows up while I’m still cooking and instead of coming to help he decided the most romantic thing he could do is crash on my couch and watch Shawshank Redemption. So I finished cooking and we ate, and while he ate, it was definatly not the exsepcted result. I seriously think I could have ordered out pizza and he would have been just as happy. Which normally is nice because even though I like to cook, I don’t want to have to do it all the time.
Oh, another awesome thing, I made a cake. I make lots of cakes, should have been easy. But I was making this new fresh strawberry filling for the cake because Fiance loves choc and strawberry cake, but something went wrong and it was WAAY too thin. So after doing a crumb coat on the bottom layer of my cake (with frosting that took twice as much powdered sugar to make thick enough to spread!) it just ran off the cake. It was pooled in the plate underneth my cake. Tried to put the top layer on anf it slid off. It wouldn’t even begin to stay on. SOOO irrititated. Fiance ate some anyway, it was awful looking, okay tasting. I couldn’t even eat it, I was so ticked at everything.
Then we were just going to hang out, chill watching a movie at my apartment, whatever. We’re low key its okay. But we spent the evening on opposite sides of my couch cause he was all curled up. Come to find out he is actually sick (he took his temp before he went back home) and I feel horrible for not being happy with how the evening went. Sigh.
Oh and even more pathedic is how, for as long as I can remember my Dad (who is a big romantic) has gotten my sister, myself and my Mom flowers. Every single year. And guess who got NO flowers from Dad this year. 🙁 And I totally get that I should be greatful for what I have and not exspect stuff like that but it still made me sad.
Sorry it is so long, I just needed somewhere to vent without hurting any feelings.