- 5 years ago
I have hadan on//off again rollercoaster ride with Dr berstein. He is a expensive diet clinic here in Canada. I have struggled with my weight well, forever, and as my wedding is fast approaching in 3 weeks, I went back on the diet to try to drop 20 pounds.
I also have gone to the doctor as I think I am having problems with my thyroid. It was slightly elevated last year and also, I have been having issues with my gall bladder and sensitivity to certain foods.
With me, gaining weight is not about eating too much. It is eating normal proportions, like a realy human being. I eat less than everyone else in my household, and put on 5 or 10 pounds without even thinking about it.
I am so low right now, because after being in a wedding 2 weeks ago…I did eat a bit more that weekend but also was realyl busy running around. I gained 8 pounds in 3 days.
Is that even humanly possible?I wasn’t grazing the sweets counter or anything like that….I had one plate of food.
So, back on Dr B. I lost 12 pounds in 2 weeks and when iwent in on Friday, they said “We were looking at your chart, and noticed you haven’t lost anything more than 4 pounds overall in the last 13 weeks since you have been off and on…so we want to adjust your goals..maybe 4 pounds a month.
The diet costs almost 700 a month-and as soon as I go off and stop eating next to nothing, all the weight goes back on.
I am typically between 155-165 lb and I am almost 5″7. I am currently 210 lbs and after what I heard on Friday, I plummeted into an all-time low pity party.
I went out for dinner with D and had nothing crazy-I ate 12 pieces of sushi and a salad. I had a small DQ ice cream.
Yesterday, we were crazy busy, and I had a small bowl of oatmeal…then last night we had some greek food-chicken kabob, salad and a pita, also about 4 tblsps of hummous.
I got on the scale today, and I am up 3.5 pounds.
I am tired of this-my doctor is exploring things, but what if it is nothing? What if I am deestined to balloon and just become 250 lbs?
I am so mad at myself already that I couldnt lose the weight and I am getting married at my heaviest.
I honestly don’t know what to do-I have tried everything and I am fed up completely with myself. 🙁