- 5 years ago
I’m not really asking for advice as I know my family is the way they are and I cannot do anything about it anymore LOL. Keep in mind that I am the family black sheep. So here it goes:
My fave aunt is having a destination wedding. I helped her arrange like 85% of it, invitations and favors and such–not a big deal. She’s a strong, determined woman so she could come off pretty aggressive–I admire her pretty much, but again it could get tiring sometimes as I have other problems in my life.
I am in the middle of a pretty heated divorce and my ex is alienating me from my daughter. I am also paid a small wage in a very expensive state. Needless to say, I have so much bills and debts taht I can’t get a lawyer. So I’m pretty depressed right now to be honest, just thinking of my daughter makes me sad. This is my problem so I deal with it the best I can, but seeing as how my job is stressful (Accounting, Big Four), this personal struggles truly is taxing. I’m pretty exhausted but I keep fighting even when I sometimes don’t want to get out of bed.
Anyway, my family is not helping me with my situation is still demanding that I get my daughter to go because there will be no flower girl. I said, I would like that to happen but seeing as how I can’t even see her, it would be a great miracle if I could get my Ex to let her come to an out-of-state wedding. They get mad at me.
Then I told her I am helping her as my “gift” but I’m pretty broke (paid taxes; got doctor bills). My aunt (bride) owes me money and they don’t pay me. Then they demand I go to this destination wedding seeing as how I break even every paycheck ($0). Then they get mad at me for being a bad niece/child.
Even then I compromised and said I could fly in Friday night (after work), attend her wedding Saturday, and fly home Sunday. Reason why I compromise is because she needed an Emcee for her wedding and many thinks I’m being selfish by not going. I said okay. Now she’s demanding I fly Thursday night so I can help her coordinate. I said, I’m sorry that’s too much because I have a project. They get mad at me because I’m a bad niece/child for wanting to work to support my children.
I’m just so drained by all this. I even apologized. I know that I am strong and I can handle whatever is given to me but I am working on the last edges of my sanity and keeping a straight face is so difficult. I am a cheerful person, so having this emotional burden (missing my daughter, guilt from my Ex, my aun’ts wedding) is breaking down my happy spirit.
I guess I just wanted to type it out and vent it to the netverse hoping that I can get through this difficult part of my life with my spirit battered but not defeated.