- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
So my fiance and I have been engaged for a little over a year now, and are getting married this June. At the beginning of the year, we moved out of PA and down to Virginia, away from all of my family and friends. This is the first time I have lived out of state, but not away from family. I lived about 2 hours from them before. Anyway. We had plans to move South together, but we ended up in a city/state we didn’t want to go to… still, I followed him down here because he got a job offer and he was excited.
Upon arriving here, we moved into a house out in the boonies — about 30 minutes away from any large/significant city/town, and there just isn’t much to do here. To top it off, we don’t have an extra vehicle, and I have had a very hard time finding a job in my field that doesn’t require traveling to peoples homes constantly. Family is far, other people/friends are far.. civilization is far, and basically, I have felt a little trapped/lonely. I have been depressed, even. ANYWAY, that is not exactly why I am writing..
So I am having a small beach wedding, and it will require travel for those that plan to attend. The wedding probably won’t have more than 30 in attendance, and I have only two bridesmaids: my 18 year old sister/maid of honor, who is still in high school in PA, and a friend of mine, who is in grad school/always busy, and also in PA. My fiance gives me input on wedding ideas, but doesn’t go out of his way to contribute any ideas. He will contact bakeries and florists to set up appointments, and I am grateful for that… but he just isn’t into the wedding planning. Most men aren’t, so I understand.
Because my sister is young, far away, and busy with her last year of high school, she often isn’t available to discuss wedding details. And she is so young, she doesn’t really know what to do. My friend, who expresses a lot of interest in being a part of the wedding, is often too busy with school, or cancels plans she makes with me, to be with a guy. The thing is, she travels to Maryland (only about an hour and a half away from me) to be with the guy and stay for a week, but she has been unable to make any trips here to help with planning. I have gone up to PA a few times, but again, she has been unable to meet with me to do anything. She will make plans to come with me to different venue appointments, and even made plans to come wedding dress shopping with me.. but at the last minute told me that she had forgotten about our plans and made another, promising friends she would go with them to a college football game. She cancelled, and I was pretty hurt. I made other plans for her to come along to go check out our venues when she had time off and would already be in the area meeting up with this guy, but again, she has cancelled on me.
Basically, I am sitting home every day stressing over the details of a wedding, and am really feeling like I am having no help at all. I’m not the type of girl that knew years ago what my wedding would be like. I’m pretty clueless as to what all goes on, and I am indecisive when it comes to decor, fashion, etc. I send my fiance and mother emails with links, photos, ideas often, but they can only really say ‘Yes I like it’, or “No I don’t.” I have been so stressed about everything lately and hate feeling like I don’t have anyone at my side, helping me and offering suggestions and ideas.
*Sigh* So I don’t really know what else to say. Just had to vent really.