- 5 years ago
- Wedding: April 2015
Ever since he hinted at a shiny surprise when I got home, and it wasn’t that surprise, it’s been tougher. I told myself it wasn’t that, but of course I hoped. And now the waiting hurt is all dug up again. The most important thing in my life thus far is spending it by his side. Why can his actions match his words and show me the same? Am I not good enough somehow? I don’t mean to sound whiny, this just really fucking hurts. I don’t want it to hurt our relationship, but idk what to do. He wants to know why I’m sad, but he doesn’t really want to hear it. He wants me to be happy, but he’s not ready for our future, the thing that gives me more hope and joy than anything.