Post # 1
I have an eating disorder.
Last year, I tried to bring back up my food just to see how it would feel….one year later…I can’t contol what I eat and I purge around 2 times a day.
At first I said it wasnt that bad because I could just use it to correct slip-ups…like If i ate something i really wasn’t suppoe to. Now I order KFC with the intention to purge after.
I think i have lost control. I told my Fiance about it and he told me to STOP IT!! I guess he expected that I could stop just so. I really want to lose weight but not like this. I eat and purge, then am hungry so i eta immediately after then purge again. I wish i knew a healthy diet plan i could follow.
Post # 3
Firstly, don’t be embarrassed. AT ALL.
1. purging that often will start to do a lot of damage to your esophagus.
2. If you’re at the point of admitting you have an eating disorder, you may be at the point of trying to seek help. I would immediately consult your doctor.
Please don’t be embarrassed about this, it happens, and you just have to work through it.
Post # 4
You need more than a healthy diet plan. You need counseling and serious medical attention. I urge you to talk to your physician, they can locate outpatient eating disorder counseling, suggest a nutritionist, and monitor your health. I think it’s good of you that you realized this!
Post # 5
- Wedding: January 2011 - Gardens of the World
Well, as they say, admitting you have a problem is the first step. I agree with the other comments- you need professional help from a counsellor or doctor. I know it is hard when people like your Fiance think you can just stop when you want, when you actually cant. Hang in there hun, get some help, and realise that you aren’t alone.
Post # 6
Check out http://www.sparkpeople.com. Its a great, free site that can give you a healthy meal plan. There is also a lot of healthy tips, and advice on there.
Post # 7
Do Not be Embarrased! Saying what you just came out and said takes courage…. ((hugs))
You need to make an appt with your family doctor or a regular/internal medicine doctor and get yourself checked out… let them know (yes I know it sucks but it’s a good thing) They’ll be able to do the whole work up they need to to make sure that no long term damage has been done.
They will also be able to get you some information…. there is nothing wrong with YOU! ((hugs)) again.
Here’s a book I would like to suggest. I am so proud of you! yes I know I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I know that keeping a secret and then letting it out takes COURAGE ((hugs))
here’s the link for the book
Post # 8
you have no reason to be embarassed. Many women go through this and you are not alone. I also have spots of eating disorders so I can relate to how you are feeling. I second the idea of telling your doctor. I am proud of you for admitting this and teling your Fiance…I can only imagine how difficult that was. But, If you do not think you can stop this on your own you must go to your doctor for help asap. I wish you the best of luck. You can overcome this girl! Good luck to you!
Post # 9
This is more common than you think. In fact I am not ashamed to admit that during my high school years I did have a problem with my body image and did things similiar to what your doing now. The first step is admitting that you have an eating disorder and the second step is going to get counciling. Your condition will absolutely not improve if you don’t get some counciling. Hang in there and make sure you go to your doctor to make sure no permanent damage has happened to the lining of your stomach and esophagus.
Post # 10
Good for you for saying something. This is not embarassing. But you do need more than nutritional advice or a plan from a website. Without a solid outpatient – or, scary as it sounds, perhaps even inpatient – treatment program, you may not be able to address the thoughts and feelings that are causing you to do this in the first place, and build new behaviors and responses. Reading a book, seeking help from a website, these are all great supporting tactics, but they should not be your first plan of attack. An eating disorder has similar patterns and cycles as any other addiction, and this can kill you. But most importantly, I’m not a doctor. So please, please talk to one. Good luck!
Post # 11
You need mental support (doctor/mental health) and you need the support of your family and friends in order to stop. I have had one too and Its hard to stop.
I did go to a inpatient eating disorder rehab and a outpatient one also and me personaly I think the outpaitent one helped alot more because you were learning to get past it in you every day life not the safe little bubble they make for you.
If you need someone to talk to or some support you can always PM me. but all the PP are right admiting it is the hardest part. But the rest of your recovery will not be easy and you will have to work at it every day. I wish the best for you and hope you can find the help and support you need.
Post # 12
You’re singing my song, girl. I was diagnosed with a form of Bulimia when I was 19 (even tho it was going on longer than that…). You MUST meet with your doctor and make a plan. Typically they can enroll you in an eating disorder group, which will include your PCP, a counselor and a nutritionist ( also a GI and a dentist in our cases).
If you need someone to talk to, I’m here! I’ve been through it all…it’s a long road but you can do it! You are worth it.
Post # 13
Most people’s knee-jerk reaction is to tell you to go to counseling, doctors, or a treatment program. I’m telling you NOT to go unless you are really serious about recovery. If you aren’t interested in recovery, you’ll put your loved ones on a roller coaster while you step in and out of recovery. You have to want it. Otherwise, Sessions (esp group ones) are just hour long trigger sessions.
Is this about weight or about control? If you haven’t had that conversation with yourself, read Dying to be Thin by Ira Sacker. It’s rarely about weight and you might have to a look at some other things in your life.
Post # 14
@Jeannine @ Small Chic: 100% agree.
i have been dx’d anorexic since i was 11 years old. i can go a couple of years and not be restricting, but it always comes back (especially during events like weddings!). i have been in/out of treatment for years but my heart was never in it to quit…i didn’t ever WANT to…i was only doing it for family/boyfriends, etc…never for me. you have to KNOW and be so damned frustrated and HATE the disease before you can get yourself out of it and head towards recovery. it is a lifelong illness like alcoholism or drug addiction…unfortunately, it will always be with you…you just have to decide how you are going to handle it.
Post # 15
@ijustrockout I knew someone would know where I’m coming from. 🙂
Post # 16
HUGS to you!!! Good for you for admitting it. I have no expertise, so I won’t give you advice one way or another – but I will say that there’s hope. It doesn’t always have to control you. One of my best friends was anorexic in college, and she managed to recover (with treatment, not on her own!) after a few years. She’s spent the last 10 years eating well, maintaining a healthy weight and lifestyle.