- 4 years ago
Hey bees! Long time lurker – first time poster here. Just need to vent a little…
SO and I have been together for nearly three years and although we’ve talked about marriage frequently since the beginning, I’d only consider myself seriously waiting for about the past 7-8 months. It seems we’re both on the same page-ish as far as timelines go as he’s promised a proposal by spring 2014, but I’m just too impatient!
See, the hard part is that I know he has the ring and has for about a month. I actually signed for the delivery (we live together) and he even showed me the box! And I may have peeked on one occasion… (which I confessed, but my oh my!) He’s always talking about how much he can’t wait to put it on my finger, etc (which always puts the toothiest grin on my face). My question is what’s the hold up then?! We’re going on a romantic getaway in a few days to celebrate Xmas and up until a few hours ago I was beyond convinced it would happen then. He kept telling me he couldn’t wait to give me my surprise Xmas present and I started to kid myself into thinking it would be the ring. But this morning, I asked him jokingly what my Xmas surprise gift is (I picked out my others haha) and he said he hadn’t even ordered it yet!!! He rush ordered it today hoping it will be here by tomorrow, but seriously? I then asked him, still jokingly, if it was the proposal and if it would happen on the trip and he said “no.” He even pinky promised (haha lame but it’s our thing), which made my heart sink.
All I can think is that he last-minute changed his mind about a possible holiday proposal, although he’s been acting really sweet lately, and that it’s probably my fault. I’m afraid I asked him one too many questions and because of that he might have cancelled it because he felt an element of surprise was gone or I was expecting it too much. On the other hand, I’m hoping he’s just trying to throw me off but that’s not really his style. Although, I’ve fed him a fair share of white lies to preserve awesome surprises, so maybe this is payback? Lol.
Sorry this is incredibly long but I just need to vent a little. I just hate that I feel disappointed at all and afraid I’m gonna let disappointment ruin our trip. Being fair, he does have until next spring, so I can’t be too mad, but still… I just can’t wait to marry this fool 🙂