- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2016
Thanks for stopping by! I would love your thoughts and imput if you wouldn’t mind.
I have been with my wonderful Boyfriend or Best Friend for almost 7 years in August. I’m 24, he’s 28, so we got together young. As I have mentioned in other threads, we’ve discussed having a long engagement due to my remaining 2 years in NP school. I continue to get the vibe its coming really soon, but am wondering if maybe I am off base. We went ring shopping in march, hes chatted with my mom, we discuss it often etc. I am so so excited to be engaged to him, because I love what being engaged represents. I love that we will officially reach that next step.
So, last night, we were discussing our summer plans. We are going away for 3 days on our 7 year anniversary in August, and then 2 days after we come home, I booked a photoshoot with a great photographer that I ended up randomly winning! It was/is supposed to be just a fun shoot of 2 people in love in the city we love, as we dont have any professional photos of us from all these years ( all those selfie ones are getting to me! haha) so I was reallyyyy excited about this. I love the idea of the boston skyline ( where our first date was) and us in a photo FINALLY. I also am having MAJOR surgery the following week, and will be in the hospital/ on the couch for 10 days and figured it would be so fun to get a unique date the week before.
I also must admit, I wondered if he would propose this summer.
But then, when I brought up that my friend offered to do my hair for the shoot, he said, “Now that I think of it, I wonder why we are doing this shoot before we are engaged”. Needless to say, I was sad. 1) I thought maybe he was bowing out ( He wasn’t he said he was still game because he knew I would have fun) and 2) it kinda suggested to me that maybe my supicions of getting engaged this summer are wrong. Deep down, I kinda hoped that the shoot could double as an engagement shoot, but in the event it didn’t, its fine. I also really thought it could cheer me up before my surgery.
My friend thinks he maybe said that to steer me off course, into thinking it wasn’t happening, but I am not so sure.
Ugh, I hope I don’t sound terrible. I think I’m just overly emotional/stressed about my surgery and wanted to make sure the first half of my vacation was fun before I was in pain for days. But wanted to ask you, if you all thought maybe he was trying to steer me off course and possibly wanted to see my reaction or if the shoot is a bad idea now.
He’s a great guy, and I will be happy either way, even if I have to wait another few years. To me, its not about the ring, or the party, or the whatever. i just cannot wait to be his future wife. I think i was just getting the build up from shopping, talking about it, hearing him also bring it up without me prompting it, etc.
Thanks in advance! Im a newbie here, so forgive me if my paragraphing is jumbled!