- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2015
This is my first post…sorry if it ends up super long! 🙂
First I should give a bit of background. When my boyfriend and I met, we knew pretty quickly this was it. We began talking about weddings, babies, all the things you probably shouldn’t be talking about so soon in a realtionship very soon. The kicker? He was the one that constantly brought it up. When I would ask if he was sure he was comfortable talking about all of this, he would reply, “I’m not afraid of talking about these things, because I know I want them, and I know I want them with you.” So needless to say, we already have a lot of our future wedding planned (as well as baby names, etc- but that is a whole different post.)
Flash forward to today, and we’ve been talking a lot lately about rings. What I like, my size, etc. Again, he almost always brings it up. This week, through a series of coinsidences, I found out that he went ring shopping with his best friend. He has no idea that I know. I have no idea whether or not he found something, whether or not he bought a ring. I would like to keep it that way, but of course I can’t help but obsess like crazy!
Last night, we were looking at suits for him online for some upcoming weddings of friends of ours, which led to the discussion of what he might want to wear to our wedding. Out of the blue, he gets really upset and says something along the lines of, “you know, I’m feeling really pressured right now. I think we have been talking about this way too much. I feel there is going to be no element of suprise, and that really sucks.” I know that I am guilty of bringing up wedding stuff often, especially lately. I feel absolutely horrible for making him feel this way. Even though he brings it up often too, I totally get where he is coming from and I feel awful. Especially knowing that he could be literally days away from proposing.
So anyway, this post is pretty much just to get this off my chest. There really isn’t anyone I can talk to about this in real life. Reading all of your posts have been extremely helpful. For now, I am going to stick to reading these boards, and seriously attempt to not bring up anything wedding related from here on out. It’s just so hard when you know you are going to spend forever with your best friend! If anyone has any “waiting” advice, it would be much appreciated! 🙂