- 8 years ago
I’ve been waiting technically for TEN years. We met back in highschool, dated for a while, we both finished college now, we had our breakups and makeups (several over the years) , both have decent jobs now. Im just about the finish my Masters degree and we have now been living together for the past couple of years. Im about to turn 26 and he’s about to turn 27. I’d say he has no more excuses.
I’d say since Jan of this year, I’d really started talking about engagements and marriage seriously. We started budgeting better and saving. I was hoping he’d do it soon, but then the rest of winter went by, then spring, then summer. I broke up with him in the summer and he claimed to have been “close” to proposing. After a few months, I decided that I still wanted to be with him, no matter what. So we got back toghether. Everything is great. I realize more than anything now that I do trully want to be with him.
Our ten year anniversary is this Nov 26, the week after thanksgiving. I’m pretty sure he hasn’t bought a ring yet. Two weeks ago he signed both of us in a engagement ring contest, which was to raise money for SusanGKolem foudnation. The contest was very fun- but of course we didn’t win. He tells me he has the money since he’s been saving, but im sure he hasn’t bought the ring yet. Im so anxious and constanly worrying about it. Im afarid that I’ll flip on our anniversary if he doesn’t cough up a ring. Im 90% certain that he’s not going to do it, it’s only 14 days away!
I think I’ll give him till the end of the year, Jan 1. He’ll have plenty of chances to do it. Christmas, and New years, and my birthday is also the week after christmas. I don’t know what I’ll do if it doesn’t come this holiday season. I’ve been so depressed and worrying lately. Somedays I just thrown a B*#&ch fit, and then I know that it’s just pushing him further away.
But how can he not expect that, I mean I’ve technically been with him for ten years now. He’s knows exactly what he’s getting with me. We’ve been through it ALL- literally. I don’t know why he’s dragging his feet. I’ve heard all the excuses- it’s financial stuff, im waiting to save, im not sure our families will get along(which is true, they don’t, my parents can’t stand him). But lately, he’s been saying that he doesn’t want to feel pushed or like im nagging him.
But i can’t help it! I hope i can keep sane for the next few months and hang in there. Please god don’t let my emotional outbursts get the better of me.