- 10 years ago
- Wedding: August 2012
I guess I should start off by saying that although I’m *sighing* over this whole situation, I’m actually happy to be in it. Let me clarify:
10-months ago, my (now) ex-FI/semi-bf called off our wedding/engagement out of nowhere (after only 5 months.. and, making me wait almost 9 years for it in the first place*.. but, I digress). It totally caught me off-guard, since we were well underway with planning, and also in the midst of looking for/purchasing our first house. Anyway, the deed was done, and I moved out with our 6-year-old DD.
These past 10 months have been a roller-coaster of sorts, but we’re slowly-but-surely working on things to get back to where we were.. to better than that, really. We’ve learned to communicate better, we’re learning to appreciate each other more, etc.. We still have some issues to work through, but we both realize that we do in fact want to be together, and love/cherish/annoy each other for the rest of our lives. That being said, he still hasn’t officially asked me to be his girlfriend again (is that how it works, anyway? LOL!), and we’re not jumping right back into planning the wedding (despite his Mother’s wishes/hopes.. bless her heart).. from what I gather, he’s even planning on getting me a new ring when the time comes, even though I’m completely fine with wearing my first ring (and, do often, for nostalgia’s sake).
Anyway, here I wait.. again. And, as weird as it may be, I’m okay with that. Fow now, anyway. HAHA!
* In our talks over the last little while, he revealed to me that he hadn’t proposed because he felt like we were already married in a sense–living together, had a child, together for so long, etc. Men.