Post # 1
here I sit 11 weeks 3 days pregnant, and waiting for my body to catch up and realize that I no longer have a baby with a heartbeat. .
Everything was going well and I was so excited that the first trimester was coming to an end, even had family over for Memorial Day and was not exhausted all day.
So when Tuesday rolled around I was excited for my Dr. appt., the appt went smoothly until she grabbed the Doppler to listen to the heart beat…. she kept moving it around and I knew it was taking entirely too long to find the heartbeat, tears rolled from my eyes, She told me it was ok and the baby was just being stubborn , I told her it worried me because of my early miscarriage in January… so she said ok let’s not get you worried, I will get them to roll in the sonogram machine and we will let you see this baby’s heartbeat.
They rolled in the machine and she turned the screen towards me, as soon as she found my baby I could see that the size had not changed much from my last sono, after a few minutes she confirmed that my baby no longer had a heartbeat, I gasp for air not realizing I had been holding my breath, she told me the baby measured only 9 weeks.. then She left me alone to dress, and then came back to give me my options… so alone, in shock, and dis belief, I sat and tried to listen.
My options were to have a d&c or to let my body have a natural miscarriage. I have decided to go the natural route. So now I wait… and somehow today is much worse than Tuesday was, I guess it’s just starting to sink in…
This morning I rolled over and sat on the edge of my bed and gave my round little tummy a rub, then it hit me… it wasn’t a dream, this is my reality, and my baby is no longer there.
Post # 3
Oh Kamie I am so, so sorry. Please do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself both physically and mentally. We’re all here for you.
Post # 4
@kamielynn: i’m so sorry for your loss! i’m getting teary reading this. (((hugs)))
Post # 5
So full of sadness for you! Wish we could take away your hurt. Take care of yourself!!! We are all thinking of you!!
Post # 6
**HUGS** I am so sorry to hear that. I pray that you will have a baby but its important to take care of yourself.
Post # 7
🙁 🙁 🙁 There is nothing I can say to make this better. I just hope it happens quickly and you can start to heal. Sending tons of hugs and thoughts your way.
Post # 8
So sorry for your loss! 🙁
Post # 9
I’m setting here in tears for you. I’m so, so sorry! I wish there was something we could do to ease the pain. *HUGS* You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Post # 10
@kamielynn: Kamie, I know there’s nothing that we can say to make it better, but know that we are here for you. Keeping you and your SO in my thoughts and prayers that you both can heal from this awful ordeal <3
Post # 11
Oh no, I’m so sorry 🙁
Sending all my love your way xxxxx
Post # 12
I’m so sorry. Prayers for you.
Post # 13
I am so sorry for your loss.
Post # 14
@kamielynn: I’m so so sorry, I can’t imagine how awful that would be. Not sure but what your personal beliefs are, but I’m praying for you.
Post # 15
Big hugs to you. Sending my thoughts and prayers
Post # 16
@kamielynn: I am so very sorry. I can’t imagine all the feelings you must be experiencing 🙁 You are in my thoughts and prayers.