- 8 years ago
I know it has been said time and time again but if I don’t get some of this venom out of my system I literally think I’m going to rip the BF’s head off so …..
I have been with this man, next month, for seven years and still no freaking hint of a ring!
I have had all my older cousins and now a few of my younger cousins have got engaged AND married in less time then me and the mr have been together! I have the same issues with friends and if I have to hear one more time ‘Well when’s it your turn?’ I’m literally going to beat that person with the nearest object.
One of my closest mates got engaged after 1.5 years with her BF, who the month before she was slagging off and contemplating DUMPING, and I’ll admit I didn’t handle it very well on that occassion but on all the sodding other occassions I’ve acted with nothing but grace mainly because I’ve had my mum to have a moan too.
And now today another close friend of ours has got engaged.
It does make me think whats wrong with me. I go from anger to crying (I always make sure the BF isn’t around) I literally don’t know what else I can do. We talked about a deadline but he got annoyed with it and said it sounded like an ultimatium even though I told him it was more for me and not him.
I genuinly don’t know how to handle this anymore! Any tips?
I don’t nag about a ring, to be honest I try not to bring it up, same with weddings I try not to talk about them. If he brings up the subject I engage with the right amount of enthusiasm so I sound interested but not so I’m over the top. He knows I want to marry him and he knows I won’t make a move overseas until we are married. And yet nothing, he’ll talk about wedding ideas i.e what he likes what he doesn’t like but he won’t look at rings or discuss times grrrrrrrrrrrr.
I don’t want to bring this up with him anymore as I have literally talked to him until I’m blue in the face, telling him exactly how I feel. i.e: that i’m not good enough, I feel there’s something wrong with me.
The longer it takes the more it makes me think he’ll never do it and I point blank refuse to be with someone unless they want to get married. Yes i know marriage isn’t the be all and end all but its important to me, not for the wedding day or any of the stuff to please other people but the fact we’d be a unit. I want a marriage not a wedding.
Sorry for the random thoughts but my brains a bit of a mess because I’m struggling to work through these emotions, even though by the time he gets home I’ll be happy and ‘Fine’.
And before people comment I do have enough of my own life so that we have the whole abscent time. I go to the gym, see friends and family. I also recently dyed my hair because I needed a change.
So basically if anyone can give me some advice on how to handle the green eyed monster I would be really grateful!