- 8 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011
After weeks of snooping around this site I figure its high time to share my story, especially since I know you all understand and most people around me don’t. My b/f and I have been together a little shy of a year (1yr anniv. 9/02/10) although we’ve known each other for years. I would have to say that not to long into our relationship was I pretty sure he was the one for me and vice versa. We’ve casually discussed marriage/engagement for the past few months also joking about our ‘timeline’, date for a year, get engaged and be married a year later. I always assumed that we would stick to that and both of us felt comfortable with it, but I think he may surprise me and propose early.. that is why I’m crazy I can’t stop thinking is it today? Tomorrow? When we go out to dinner tomorrow night?
I was fine until about a month ago- Up until that point I had been excited about our nearing anniversary but still was under the assumption the engagement would be sometime after but probably before the holidays and there was no reason to get all hyped up about anything. I had told my s.o. that I didn’t want to know what ring he picked but wanted him to know what I did and didn’t like and of course my size because what girl wants to give up her ring for a few days if its needs sized after receiving?
So a month ago we go looking, I still felt it was too early to go look, but figured whats the harm, we had been looking online at various things and what not. My s.o. upon arrival to the jewelers was interested in 3-stone rings and I just something more simple with maybe side band diamonds. We had no intention of finding one specific ring just wanted to sort through likes and dislikes. After kinda rolling out 3 stones and a few others, the salesperson picked one she thought we’d like by what we had said we prefered. Well… I didn’t want to take it off my hand and I know that my s.o. felt exactly the same way. After leaving I could not stop looking at it online and thinking about it. My s.o. even took his parents the next day to see it! They recommended going a few more places just to make sure there wasn’t maybe a better quality diamond out there for the price range he’s in.
So now we’re at July 22 and so far I know no more about his ring capades except for being almost positive he went to a few other jewelers and I’m not sure what he found. As much as I always said I did not want to know what the ring looked like prior to his proposal after seeing that ring I’d be ok with, plus I’ve started to forget how beautiful it looked on my hand. It also excites me to think that he fell in love with another one that he knows i’ll equally fall in love with. At this point I’m not so much ‘ring crazy’ but he’s dropped a few hints to me that it may all happen before our year, which is perfectly fine with me, I want it to be when he wants and how he chooses to do it will be perfect. But because I’m a girl, who’s sometimes obsesssive and sometimes controlling (although surprisingly I love surprises) I can’t stand now knowing when. Even though I ‘m saying this I def. don’t want to know when but its still driving me nuts.
I read all these posts here in ‘waiting’ and see that girls have been waiting for years and months and think wow I shouldn’t be crazy at all these woman are saints, b/c i can’t imagine what i’d do. Thankfully I’m a busy girl with 2 jobs and going to school.
Ok I feel a lot better now.