- 6 years ago
So…before i unload this big ol sob story im feeling….i should tell you a little about us. My SO and I have been together for 5 years, we meet early on my freshman year of college, and he has been by my side ever since…well here lately ive been back and forth, from feeling like “yay this is really gonna happen”…to damn is everyone right….
My SO have been through a lot, including a major bout of depression for me, due to the loss of my baby sister(due to medical problems), the loss of my best friend (she would have been my MOH), and the loss of my nana(who basically raised me while my parents worked) and just recently my nephew being diagnosed with a rare medical condition, that while he will be just fine we have to monitor him closely. he held me up when i couldnt pick myself up off the floor. He has been my angel and my rock and i would be in a very very bad place if it werent for him.
Lately we….well I have been getting alot of pressure about when we are getting married. the problem is we have looked at rings and I finally found THE ring….and he knows about it, was there, knows where it is, and how much it costs. and he really likes it…so what is the big deal you may be asking….since he’s even unofficially asked me to marry him…
Well i have 2 problems:
1.) my sister is driving me bat shit crazy! she is 2 years older than me, has been divorced approximately a year and is getting married next may to her new guy….and it is ALL i hear about! and not to mention, when i brought up casually that my SO and I had been talking about it…nievly thinking that she is my sister she will be soo suprised and excited for me….right??? WRONG!! she threw a tantrum! I mean an all out hissy fit! because lord have mercy I was just trying to upstage her(we have a very rough relationship…everything i have ever done she throws a fit about cuz im just trying to be better than her…which is why im graduating nursing school and she has yet to finish filling out her application to nursing school that she started 3 years ago….but i digress)…which then got her possy of friends involved (the same ones who talk her into absolutely stupid things *such as her first marriage since they were all getting married it would be more fun if she did too*) on my case about how i should just not be soo jealous of her that i have to try and upstage her (even though i have been with SO for 5 years and her fiance and her have known each other like 9 months)…and it goes on and on from that…then the rest of my family is giving me pressure to get married cuase well, its that time and we live together, and i never should have moved in with him 3 years ago, becuase why buy the cow when you can have the milk for free…and yadayadayada….
2.) My SO is starting to make me nuts….first it was going to be as soon as they finished planting corn, then he wanted to save more money first, so this comming fall, and now next year either after corn is planted or next christmas….which shouldnt be that big of a deal, but he was all excited when i picked out a set at a different price…my whole set with the e-ring wedding band, tax, and lifetime careplan that replaces any stones or damages to the ring u name it, plus the first 2 sizings are free. is a whopping total of $770…he suddenly made a comment about how he needs more money and he just cant spend money on a ring right now…but the kicker is today he went out and bought a new $3,000 rifle that is all tricked out….
sooo im a tid let down and frustrated, and i dont really feel like there is anyone i can talk to with out feeling like a jealous a** either way….
Am I being a baby about this???
ps i can never resist an oppertunity for a little ring porn….so here is the set i found!