- 1 year ago
I’m 25 now. I dropped out of college after my first semester (due to immaturity/social anxiety) in 2011, and worked in food service full time for 4 years. In fall 2016, I started school again at a community college, with the goal of pursuing medical school (veterinary medicine or human medicine was my goal before).
I’ve since completed 3 semesters, taking 12-16 credits a semester, and went down from full time to part time, working ~25 hours/wk the last 2 semesters. I have gotten a 4.0 GPA all 3 semesters (but haven’t taken bio 1 or 2, or gen chem yet). I learned in my english class my first semester back that i have a fixed mindset (which was another reason I ended up dropping out)
I had to take spring 2018 off from school to move to a new city, but am enrolled to start again this fall 2018. I will be only working 2 days/wk next semester, so I can have more time for volunteering/studying.
I have bounced back and forth between wanting to go into various (what I deem “easier”) careers (social worker, physician assistant, clinical psychologist, therapist, speech language pathologist, dentist, teacher, optometrist, podiatrist) and I always end back up with wanting to go to medical school. I want to work with people one-on-one, have a leader role, work with my hands, diagnose and treat, help in a practical and concrete way, and be able to teach others. I also find the human body fascinating and am not squeamish except for vomit (which I’ve read is overcome through exposure) I feel like medicine combines all of those things. I also realized that I’m okay with having my job/career be “my life”, as I spend 99% of my free time career planning.
(Although it is really naive and premature, I’ve read a lot of different books written by various physicians, and I really think I would want to go into primary care, either general pediatriacs or family medicine. I want to work with homeless and underserved populations, and am trying to learn spanish so I am able to do that.
At the same time, I am just feeling really overwhelmed by everything I have to do to have a chance of medical school, and don’t have anyone really to help guide me. I also feel embarassed at even telling people I want to go to medical school, like I should have humbler aspriations. I also worry that I am not smart enough for the advanced biology, chemistry, physics, and math courses, even though generally speaking, I like science and math.
I read posts on predmed forums like SDN, and see all the things that other premeds have accomplished, and it makes me feel overwhelmed and that I have no chance of getting into medical school, especially since I failed so badly before and have zeroes weighing down my GPA. Being a community college student makes it a lot harder as well, as there are a lot of really neat opportunities in my city to shadow doctors, clinical volunteering at free clinics, etc. but you have to attend the university.
I currently work ~40 hrs/wk, but I am going to start volunteering again soon once my work schedule is more stable. Planning to volunteer at a hospice and a soup kitchen.
I have 2 more years of prereqs before I can transfer, so 4 more years total of undergrad.
Any advice would be appreciated.
My parents are not exactly not supportive, but basically have suggested other careers or implied I shouldn’t try to go to medical school. They don’t know I failed and dropped out of college though before. One parent thinKs I should drop out of school and try to get a job where they work or go for radiology tech. The premed forums are not exactly supportive places either. Lol
I’m just looking for guidance I guess.