- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2015
Hi all, so I just had an amazing weekend with my Boyfriend or Best Friend. Our relationship is going so well and I honestly could not be any happier 🙂
We spent the whole weekend cuddling in bed, talking, watching tv, reading, etc. It rained here the whole weekend and we are trying to save money so we decided not to go out. But I’m so glad we didn’t. I’ve never felt more loved and cherished.
Especially since Boyfriend or Best Friend kept giving me these looks. You know that feeling where you feel like someone’s watching you? Well I would look up and see him just staring at me with a tender smile on his face. I would smile back at him and say “Whatcha thinking about?”
And he would smile even bigger and say “Secret thoughts.”
Or I would laugh and say “Why are you looking at me like that?”
He would say in a teasing tone of voice, “I can look at my girlfriend however I want.”
I would laugh and let the subject drop. But I have to admit, those “secret thoughts” of his are driving me crazy. And I know it’s not him thinking that he wants to move in together or that he wants to marry me someday because he’s already told me that! We’ve already discussed that. So what else is left for him to be having secret thoughts about??
The only theory I can think of is that he’s thinking about proposing…but I don’t think that’s right. Because when we first started talking about getting married, he said that he wanted to wait to get married until he was on better financial terms. Which I totally understand.
So I asked him if he had a timeline or timeframe in mind for us to get married. And he said “Nope, that’s a secret! That’s supposed to be a surprise.” And I’ve asked him a few times since then and he refuses to budge on this issue.
So I really have no idea when we will get engaged. It could be this September, our one year anniversary, or it could be in February when we move in together. Or it could be even longer than that! It could be two, three years from now. I HAVE NO IDEA. Because he won’t tell me. :p
However. I’m not really fighting him on this because honestly, I do love the idea of being completely shocked and surprised. I do like the idea of not knowing AT ALL when it’s coming. So I am torn.
Does anyone else feel this way? Like you kind of wish he would give you a timeline but then you kind of feel like you’d be happier not knowing?