- 8 years ago
- Wedding: August 2010
Hello lovely ladies:
Before i start rambling on let me give a little background to us:)
Ariyan and i are amazing together and last year of marriage with all it’s up and down is still a dream come true..because in the end what matters the most if having his arms around me before falling sleep 🙂
We got married at the city hall last August and have been planning our reception party for this August 14th…I just moved to Canada from USA and do not work…and had to put school on hold for a year because the international fees were WAYY TOO HIGH. Thu i try not to show it as much not going to school is veryy difficult for me i am and have always been IN LOVE with school..no matter how hard i love it..u can say i am a nerd in many measures 🙂 so i am left feeling useless most of the times and sometimes do not even clean the house.
His financial situation is hard…he works hard and if we did not have SOOO MUCH on our plate right now we would be fine…from paying for Immigration costs..providing for me…planning a wedding AND renovation our new house (EVERYTHING NEEDS WORK IN OUR HOUSE) AND NOW buying furniture we have little to no money left and will be in even more debt soon. We are saving money in everything we can..we have not gone over 10 K for the wedding and i even paid for my own dress and for my saving paying for the alterations and so many little things i wanted (made my own jewels etc)
I should be excited to pick up my dress from the Seamstress tomorrow but all i can think of IS THE MONEY i will pay her..i am losing the excitement more and more last night after putting the deposit for out Sofa set i found lovely boxes that would have been perfect for decoration/storage 3 different sizes and total would have been 30$s i said i will pay for them but the look on his face was heartbreaking so i left it ..he WANTS soooo badly to give me all i want/need but i c he can not…
even before we went ahead with wedding planning we discussed forgetting about it but knew we will regret it greatly…now we have put down deposits FOR EVERYTHING and most my guests from USA have gotten their tickets (all of them in financially difficult situations) i really just want to GIVE IT UP…i just do not enjoy anymore..every project (DIY) i get excited about we can not afford we want the day to be different and special and i have MANY cost friendly option that HE LOVES but when we go shopping everything even a 4$ glue gun is too expensive…
and if we leave it plain now all our hard work would be pointless all the research thinking and investment to make it US make it lovely…
when i got home last night i picked up one of our cats (the loves of our lives) and i felt happy and blessed to have her in my arms..i wish to have all my loved ones here with me..i want to make the trouble they went thru to be able to come here be worth it..
i am tired of wanting things…y can’t i just stop wanting things? things like DIY guest book…
i am doing my own hair..my own makeup…i have found great deals on many things..so have he..still we come short in the end…
MY mom is soo happy and is doing so much for the traditional part (We r Iranians) she just went back to IRan to get these for me..thankfully it is my father’s money spent not ours 🙂
ps. In my culture groom pays for the wedding..even if that was not true Ariyan would have still wanted to pay for everything (too much pride) 🙂
I just wanted to let it out..so sorry for the long sad..nonsense pot 🙂