- 7 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
…the timeline came and went and…
….I’m still waiting
I cannot deny it. I was gutted. Even when he said the night before our anniversary meal that he didn’t get his bonus so the ring wasn’t in place for the timeline he created, I thought he might be trying to throw me off but alas, he wasn’t playing. I’m still not engaged.
I feel like waiting has gone into over time. The fact that we had a timeline in place gave me a focus, so I could put the timeline to one side and keep busy with other things- it was coming I can’t wait kind of excitement. I find it frustrating and disorientating now we’ve come to a grey area.
All that said my SO has made it abundantly clear that the timeline passing is NOT an excuse to avoid proposing or to keep stringing me along. Easy to say right, but he’s followed it up with actions and words.
In the week since our anniversary he’s been talking openly about getting a ring on my finger and has been verbal about his progress so far.
He’s said bonus or no bonus the wheels are going to be put in motion to get engaged asap. He’s since been told he WILL get his bonus at the end of this month and that the delay was because of an internal issue. This information is a bonus and is music to my ears.
He said he wants to get me an amazing ring, “because my fiancée deserves the very best!”
He sent me a random text message yesterday, while I was at work saying “I love you so much, I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you”
He called his father to get the number of a friend who is a ring maker. – This means he’s basically told his dad that he’s plans on proposing (eeeeek!)
He asked me to go ring shopping with him. We did that today. I wasn’t allowed to try any on (damn!) but we looked around to get an idea of what we both liked. We both fell in love with the same ring. It’s stunning and my ideal ring. He says if he’s not happy with what the ring maker says he can do, he’ll get that one.
There have been a lot of little things too, he’s being more helpful with the housework, and he’s being more focus with money and wants to get credit card bits settled. This evening after we went ring window shopping we went for dinner and sat talking for 20 mins about when we would do it. He thinks a year and a half engagement. I said it was too long, but we both agreed September might be lovely. September 2012 is what I put on my “wedding date” for WB when I first started here.
I haven’t told a soul about these massive developments, I’m bursting to tell someone but the people I want to tell are also people I want to announce our engagement to and it feels like a spoiler to say anything now.
I feel practically engaged. Just not officially. Give me strength to last the next XX days until it actually becomes. Official. *Sigh*