- 7 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
This isn’t necessarily an AA issue; I just didn’t know where to post my thoughts. So… I’ve come to a place where I’ve realized that wedding planning isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be. I just bought my dream dress for a really good deal, but I’m just not excited. I just want to be married and if I didn’t want my dad to walk me down the aisle, we’d just go to the judge and be done with it.
I’m usually the emotional one in all my social groups (family, friends, co-workers, classmates) and I cry at the drop of a hat, especially at really cheesy commercials, but when I tried on and bought my dress, I was really unimpressed with the whole experience. I played it up for my mom, but inside I was just bored.
First off, the lady at the bridal shop completely forgot my appointment to go do something for some other bride, and if I didn’t show up when I did (while she was locking up shop in the middle of the day), I probably wouldn’t even have my dress today. I tried on the dress a week prior with my mom, (we were rushed then too so the owner could do something for yet another bride) and for this visit I had my Maid/Matron of Honor and I wanted to have that moment where I could try on my dress and everyone oohs and aahs and we take pictures, cry a little bit and have some wine. But, the owner was in a rush, almost forgot to give my dang garment bag and now my whole dress moment is ruined.
I went to my dad’s house and tried on the dress there for everyone to see but it’s just not the same. And to top it all off, when I asked my wonderfully anti-social sister to take a peek at my dress, she was sleeping on the living room couch (which has a permanent body dent because she practically lives there)and told me she didn’t care about my dress and to leave her alone, rolled over and went back to sleep. knocking her upside the head and or telling her off doesn’t work, because I’ve tried it countless times, and I was kind of hurt and wanted to get out my dress and do something else at that point. I had a better experience with my prom dress shopping 8 years ago and I don’t even remember my date!
I’m hoping when I start with alterations, maybe that special feeling might well up inside and I’ll might start liking this whole wedding thing. But I dunno… I wonder if I’m feeling this way this soon into planning, how am I going to feel a year from now?