- 6 years ago
2012 seemed to be the year of engagements, my fiance’s older sister is engaged, my fiance’s cousin and my fiance’s good friend. That means that 2013 is going to be a busy time for weddings. Planning for an October wedding our wedding date will be last in the line of 2012 weddings for our friends/family. That being said, I feel a little over shadowed. My fiance’s sister is getting married in the Middle East, and his family is footing the bill for the wedding. However, my fiance’s family is still paying to fly and stay. Even offering to take my fiance, his older brother and I along. These plane tickets will cost well over my 3 to 4 thousand dollar budget.
Over the past few years my Mother and I have drifted apart, after she has made some poor decisions for herself. Which is ok, but not having someone to get excited with about wedding details is disappointing I was hoping my fiance’s mother and I could talk about some things, but she is a busy person and she (understandably) is more preoccupied with he own daughter’s wedding. As for bridesmaids I chose my high school aged sister and my close friends that I don’t get to see much any more because of our busy schedules.
I often try to share ideas with my fiance but lets face it, he doesn’t exactly share my specific enthusiasm. Nobody has really asked or brought up the wedding, sometimes I try but they honestly don’t seem too interested. I’ve tried to express this to my fiance, that I want someone personal to talk to about details, but he really doesn’t understand. Nobody has offered to help financially or offered any sort of support. I feel like I should postpone for a year, but feel like I am doing it for wrong reasons. I guess I should just tough it out and plan it myself, not care about anyone else. I feel very alone in my decision of whether or not to have the wedding in October 2013 or 2014.
To make things worse, I don’t even have an engagement ring yet. We agreed to find one together, and after finding one for $500 I was super excited. However, that was months ago now and there has been no mention of a ring or anything. My fiance and I are very open but, I can’t bring myself to say, “Sooo about that engagement ring…”
If I flipped a switch and all of a sudden wasn’t engaged… nothing would change, and I don’t know how to explain it, but it just makes me really sad. 🙁
I guess I am looking for some encouragement and words of advise. Thanks in advance for taking the time to read my thoughts and comment on my post. <3