- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2017
My Dad died suddenly 2 months before my wedding. It’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. Dad was my rock. He was always there. Always fixing my problems. Always there when I called. If I had a question, he had the answer. It’s been so difficult navigating life without him.
About a month after his death, I was seriously depressed. Here I was, suppose to be having the time of my life leading up to the wedding and I was just trying to survive. I was running his business (still am), helping my Mom navigate legal and financial things, attending meetings with her and all the while I had this HUGE life event approaching. Oh, and I was still working my normal job in a different city. Tired doesn’t even begin to describe the month of May for me.
I had to pull myself out of my depression, so I forced myself to stop thinking about my wedding day as the first time my Dad wouldn’t be there for something in my life, and start focusing on the fact that I was about to marry Anthony. Anthony who has been so strong for me, and who I love so much. Once I shifted my focus, I began to pull myself out of my depression, at least enough to get through the next month in one piece.
It’s still a struggle every single day. I still cry almost daily. I think it’s been harder on me because I’m so deep into his business. I still have clients that I have to tell daily about my Dad’s death because he dealt with so many people. It’s exhausting. It has taken a tole on me.
Your Grandma would want you to enjoy your day. It will be hard to not have her there. But she wouldn’t want you to be sad on that day. She’ll be there with you in spirit. I know my Dad was.