- 4 years ago
- Wedding: December 1969
HI- I wondered if anyone could help me.
I have been engaged for 6 months and due to get married in April (7 months time). I’ve been with my fiance for over 3yrs, we’ve lived together for 1.5yrs and I love him very much but I am feeling this niggling anxiety towards marrying him and scared it’s more than pre wedding jitters. How do i know?
i’m scared to commit to him with this reservationss. I have a very open relationship and have been honest with him that i am axious about it all. He’s been incredible. The problem is we are going through a lot of changes at the monment, I started a new very full on job 2 months ago, we are moving house (just bought) and we are planning our wedding. I have been really emotional for a few months but not sure which area in my life the tears are from.
I’m scared as i have such a loving, caring wonderful man but is it enough? I don’t feel the spark as much as i used to and get jelous of other couples. I find his family incredibly hard work as well. All sounds really selfish as i’m not perfect either…. i’m scared i may be ‘settling’ but how do i know. i’m not feeling my normal self but am hoping once everything has calmed down and we’ve moved, i’m settled in my job etc i will feel more assured??
Can anybody provide any advise? I am so scared and feel very alone. I don’t want to make any wrong decision or throw something good away. We are due to complete tomorrow and i feel sick writing this knowing we are due to, i am betraying him.