- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2015
Ugh… this is me! I had really close female friends growing up. The same 4 from kindergarten to 8th grade, when we all just stopped being friends. Then in high school I had a best friend until senior year when we had a falling out. I never went away to college, I commuted to save money and worked a lot so I never made friends at college. Now starting out in the work-force I am the youngest in my department by a good ten years and can’t find close friends here. I have a few friends… aquaintences through my Fiance but 3 of them just had kids in the past year and formed their own little clique. They don’t talk to me anymore because I am childless I guess. My bridesmaids are my sister, 2 of my cousins (one of whom lives out of state and I’m not really close with) and my future sister-in-law. I had another best friend but recently had a huge fight with her and we haven’t spoken in weeks. So she is out of the wedding. I always think there is something wrong with me and it’s so embarrassing to not have a single REAL FRIEND in my bridal party. I hate when people ask me who are my bridesmaids and the concern from my family of who I would ask was depressing.
The interesting thing though, my best friend from high school (the one I had a huge falling out with) contacted me last night asking if I wanted to go out in her town sometime. It was shocking and I’m like a giddy little school-girl excited for a first date. I really hope we can start our friendship again just so I can have a girlfriend to hang out with. It really sucks relying solely on my Fiance to hang out with. He needs his guy time and when he goes out with the guys, I stay home. I’ve always gotten along better with guys and I’m friends with my FI’s guy friends. We hang out all the time but there are times when a girl is just not welcome. And I miss having girl-talk and someone to go shopping with and plan the wedding with and god, am I dreading a bachelorette party! Who would come? Random aquaintences I’m not that close with? How embarrassing….