- 8 years ago
Okay, I never thought it would happen, but a few nights ago I had a weird dream and I just can’t get it out of my head.
I was standing around with about a dozen of my college friends, in my Grandma’s living room, and there was a huge wooden podium where the dining room table usually is. I was wearing jeans and a red sweetheart tube top (I’ve never worn a tubetop in my life, haha). We were all standing around and laughing, and my friend S, who just graduated seminary (in real life; we’re actually hoping he’ll perform our ceremony) was holding this giant leather bible and kept thumping it on his hands like he was impatient.
Suddenly my cousin ran into the room and was yelling that J was coming — ‘Quick get ready, here he comes!’ like it was a surprise party. And so we all lined up in front of the podium, as a bridal party, but kept laughing and talking. I was very nervous, because I was getting married, and all of a sudden I realized that I forgot to put a wedding dress on, so I starting freaking out. One of my friends pulled a long white tshirt dress out of her purse and tossed it at me, and I slipped it on under my red tube top (???) and everyone said how great it looked.
Then J came in, except it wasn’t J (who is asian), it was this guy with a body like Fabio and long blonde hair (but in my mind, I associated him with my ex, a short fat hispanic guy, not J). My ex (in real life) was super controlling, and (in the dream) I was suddenly SUPER nervous because he wasn’t going to think this was good enough for our wedding. He was wearing a tan zoot suit with an open jacket and no shirt underneath (and let me tell you, he was RIPPED).
He came across the room and as he came forward I could see that he wasn’t upset but was really excited to be marrying me, and the closer he got, it was like he slowly transformed from my crazy, abusive ex, into my sweet, wonderful J, and the closer he got, the happier we both were to be getting married.
And then I woke up, wondering why the heck I would ever wear a red sweetheart tube top over a white tshirt dress, haha.