- 8 years ago
Sorry it’s been a while since I posted. I have been trying to follow mr bees plan (although don’t I must admit I have still been reading quite a few posts hehe!)
I just wanted to update you with some potentially good news! I can’t believe I’m saying this but I really feel that something big is about to happen…
I was in Paris for 5 weeks in July/August and during that time I didn’t see my SO which is the longest time we have ever been apart in 3 years… During that time he wrote me letters and emails and started to say how much he realised even more now how much of a part of his life I am etc…. saying that he had had enough of words and that now it was time for action and that he wanted to give me the relationship I deserve. I was so overwhelmed and happy reading those messages but we have come close to being engaged in the past and I have felt let down after getting carried away with my hopes so I decided to not get my hopes up too much.
The day before I got back he said that he had a suprise for me waiting at home…. I was pretty 100% sure it wouldn’t be an engagement ring because I didn’t think he would have had time to get the money yet but I thought from a few things he had said that it might be a smaller gemstone ring that we had looked at. (I thought that maybe he would give me this as a commitment ring whilst we waited for the real engagement ring). Well when I arrived he gave me….. a bottle of bubble bath! Haha I felt a little silly for getting carried away again but I decided not to take it personally (it was lovely bubble bath haha) and to focus on the fact that we had definitely moved forward in our marriage conversations.
We left for a holiday soon after and one day I asked him a bit more about what he had in mind when he had spoken about ‘actions and not words’. He said that he wanted to get a better job to be able to provide for us and that’s what he had meant!! I tried not to show my disappointment too much (because it was still a very sweet thing to say), but I decided it was time for a ‘relationship talk’ because I never wanted that sort of missunderstanding to happen again…. and during that talk he admitted that he really wanted to ‘give me something to show his commitment before we moved flats in 2 weeks and how he knew 100% that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me!
I’ve literally been on cloud nine since we got back…. after having that conversation we have both felt so happy and relaxed. We keep talking about mariage (and he has started the conversation himself) and he has mentioned a few time that he will be getting some money from tax he overpayed in the next few weeks. He also very sweetly downloaded the tiffany app onto his iphone and said it was giving him a few ideas… I still don’t want to get my hopes up too much and I still think thate he might be refering to the gemstone ring and not the engagement ring but this is further than I ever thought we would be at this point a few months ago and I am overjoyed!