- 8 years ago
Ok, so my SO and I are out eating dinner last night, and he gets a phone call. It’s a little loud so he goes outside to take the call. He comes back and of course I ask “is everything ok,” usually its his mother. Anyway he tells me it was his past therapist from several years ago. His mother still goes to see her btw. So he asked if I would like to go to a session with him. Of course I said “yes” with out a blink of an eye. I asked him what the therapy session was for, to which he replied “Because I love you and this relationship is very important to me.”
Now on one hand, this is great to hear, but I can’t help but wonder that he’s thinkg I either “need fixin” or he thinks our relationship “needs fixin”. Either one isn’t that good.
So we talk a little more about it. Let me explain, yesterday at work I had a “WAITING MELTDOWN” and i texted him, then called him on my lunch…I was upset, wining, and acting like a baby. I’ve been getting that way A LOT these days with all the waiting…I can’t help it.
We’ve been together since highscool, 10 years this month, and our anniversary is only 2 weeks away. To say the least, I haven’t been very nice lately. More like a basket case at the sign of anything related to engagement rings or weddings. I have to admit, I have been a little winny.
He says he wants to get married, but he’s been saying that for a long time. So im just very anxious with waiting till he finally does it!
He says he wishes i were more stable and not up and down with my meltdowns. I guess he has a point. He says that by getting upset and crying over it, it won’t make him do it any faster.
So I said “but wait, if this was YOUR therapist from past, then won’t she be biased towards you, then try and convince me to wait another ten years.” I sarcastically said. He said “No, she very good, she has no problem telling me how it is. She might even side with you on this one, you never know.”
This made me feel better- I don’t think as a therapist, she’s allowed to pick sides anyway. But I do think it will be good to go. Im sure he wants to just get me to calm down. I have been feeling like im loosing my mind lol!. But doen’t we all feel like that from time to time.
He’s been saying that all he wants me to do is “RELAX, and stay CALM about it all”. I guess I just have to trust myself and him that it’ll all work out soon and that by constantly thinking about only proglongs the waiting.