- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
The desire to have a child isn’t going away, it isn’t fading with the promise of a long luxury holiday or with a lie in on a Sunday. It’s there and it’s getting harder, even Darling Husband has started feeling like he can’t wait any longer. Now even my family and my in laws are starting to ask, so where are these babies then…
…. then yesterday I got 4 missed calls from my sister, which was very unlike her to do, I called her back but I couldn’t get hold of her and I freaked out thinking something terrible had happened to my mother (a recovering alcoholic with a failing liver).
It transpired that there wasn’t terrible news to be given and the relief I felt was immense, but at the same time I realised that it could have been a terrible call and I started getting some clarity about the fact that this is the only life I’ve got and I’m “waiting” to start living it and it doesn’t make sense to wait anymore. It might take us a while to concieve and even when I do we have 9 months to prepare for what will come next, which I think is more than enough time to do all the things we need to do before baby comes along.
Darling Husband was with me while I was frantically trying to get hold of my sister and then my mother and he was fearing the worse too. We talked about how I was feeling and he said he agreed, lets move from ntnp, to actively trying. So here I am, rediculously happy for a Monday thinking about how I can join the ttc bees in the 2ww next month!