- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2016
This post is a little bit of me asking for advice and a dash of me venting because I don’t know what I want to do with my life.
Hi bees! I “officially” gradutated from college today (I actually graduated a semester early in last December, but today was the offical ceremony). I received my BA in English Lit and I’m so happy to be officially DONE!
My fiancee actually graduated today from the same school, with a BSME. For the past 6 months, I’ve been living at home with my parents, looking for jobs, ending up working in retail, and hating long distance (my school is about 4 hours away from home). My fiancee has had a job lined up since before I graduated, so I’ve known for a while where we’ll be moving to this summer (next month, actually… yeah, don’t get me started on how much we still have to do…) PS if anyone has any advice about Cleveland, OH… I’m all ears.
I’ve been perusing job sites for a while now, applying to one every so often, but I won’t start my “real” job search till we’ve moved. My fiancee’s job is well-paid for an entry-level engineering position, so I’m not feeling any “get a job or we won’t be able to afford food and rent” pressure.
My problem is that I don’t really feel “called” to any positions pertaining to my English major (I know, a little late to realize that. Trust me, I’m kicking myself. Hard.) I can list a cartload of things I definitely don’t want to do, and that makes me feel like I don’t want to do anything… and that’s pretty depressing.
Here’s a rundown of some of the basics (aka let’s get to know me!):
I don’t think I want a job that becomes my life. I want to be very family-oriented–Call me old fashioned, but I want to be able to be with my future kids a lot and be home to make dinner at night. I could see myself working from home, but freelancing seems very wishy washy. I’ve done a little research and it doesn’t seem very legitimate.
I like to think that I’m extremely creative–I’m happiest when I’m planning out and doing DIY projects.
I love to read fantasy novels and my dream is to write one some day… but that’s not very secure.
I could see myself maybe going to grad school… but what for? I feel like law school would overtake me and I don’t know that I want to dedicate another few years of my life (and another couple grand…) to academics.
(I most definitely DO NOT want to get a masters in English. I will not be a professor, no thank you.)
I am 96.3% positive that I don’t want to be a teacher. I’d love the lesson planning, grading, and background work, but I am a terrible speaker and I’m afraid that I would quickly burn out. Doing the same thing every year for the rest of my career? I don’t know if I could handle that. Sigh.
I also don’t want to be involved in marketing/sales. I had a marketing internship for a few months and I felt so dirty and sleazy. Maybe it was just the company, maybe it was just that I wasn’t passionate about the product… I don’t know. Just ew.
I don’t know, guys. I feel like I’m at such a loss any time I think about my future career.
Just hug me. Or give me advice. Or yell at me. Whatever you deem fit.