- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
i have not been on here since prior to my wedding! Anyway it’s been about 2.5 months now. Everything is super and really nothing has changed too much.
My husband is travelling now for business and I was looking through a drawer that has some paperwork in it. I was trying to find a tool to fix my sunglasses.
Anyway, I came across a typed out paper with some “goals” on it. They were listed in categories like Business, Financial, Personal, Fitness, Social. I probably shouldn’t have read it but I think I started looking at it because I was trying to figure out whether it was garbage or not. It seems like it was written about 7-10 years ago so WAY before I even knew him. He was in another relationship. HOWEVER, one of his goals was “Get engaged by the end of the year”.
Long story short, he tells me that he never really wanted to marry his ex and that she was pushing for it. Eventually, they broke up over that (along with other lifestyle differences).
I was always under the impression, I was the first girl he wanted to marry. Now, I’m unsure if I am! Why would a man write that down as a goal if he didn’t want to marry her?
I’m by no means jealous or insecure. I just kind of want ot know what was going on in his life he felt like that was part of the goal before and was it serious? I wouldn’t be hurt if he said he wanted to marry her bc it’s what she wanted but I would be hurt if I found out he wanted to marry her and maybe the truth was she didn’t want to in the end anymore?
I want to know the truth to why he wrote it down. I don’t know really how to bring it up.
For the record, some of the things on the list he did make happen. He landed large accounts with his firm, he bought a nice place to live and then there were some funny (okay, I thought funny/cute ones) like “own a club”…which is really far from what he would even want to do now. It is a really generic list and what seems like “ultimate” life goals. Another one was open a clothing line….which again is nowhere near what he would think of doing now.
P.S he wouldn’t get mad I read this note btw, he is very open and I’ve accidently read other love letters before and I/He was fine with it (just threw it out after). He probably doesn’t even remember he has this paper.