- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2011
i feel so dumb right now…. okay soooo when fi and i where dating… we were having problems so we decided to take a break… during the break i met this great guy ‘j’ andways… j and i starting casually hanging out… going to dinner etc. i didnt even want a relationship bc of what i was going through with my now fi. anyways… dinner once a week turned into everyday and things got kind of emotional and physical… anywhoo…. i started to have feelings for j which totally confused me bc i really do and have always loved my fi. i told j that i still loved my ‘ex’ (now fi) and he got upset. basically his family is very priveliged and he grew up not needing or wanting anything…. so he would say things like ‘just dont worry about him… i will take care of you’ blah blah. soooo this went on for a good 6 months. i basically told him i couldnt continue our relationship bc i loved fi too much. soo we broke it off and a few months later fi and i decided to work on our relationship and now are happily engaged and i am so excited to be married to the man i love next year… fast forward to today about an hour ago… i see j’s new girlfriend… and shes pregnant. i was so upset about this that i kind of teared up. what the heck is wrong with me. i do not want to be with j. but i guess i do still care about him. i have never felt this way in my life! ugh.