Post # 1
There’s a lot going on but I’ll try to condense it. Basically, I’m going through a really rough time. I haven’t had a full time job in a year, have had two interviews in the last month and haven’t gotten the job. If I don’t get a teaching job by the time school starts, I’ll be looking for another career, which saddens me but I don’t have much of a choice. The financial piece is starting to take a toll and my self-esteem is in the tank. I just found out I didn’t get the last job I interviewed for and have fallen into a bit of a funk. As in, struggling to get through the day without crying at my part-time job, coming home and sleeping or watching tv, etc. I’m seeing a counseler and working on the issues but I’m at a bit of a low point at the moment.
Darling Husband and I are supposed to leave for the beach with the IL’s tomorrow and I just don’t want to go. I want to stay home, watch movies, snuggle with my cat, catch up on my reading, maybe do some shopping, and get my head on straight and get in a better place. Normally, I’d think a beach trip might get me out of my funk but I”m craving some alone time. And SIL and I have some issues we need to work out and I’m very uncomfortable around her. Bottom line, I don’t know that I can fake being happy and comfortable around SIL, what with all the other things going on at this point. I’m just stretched too thin. I want Darling Husband to go even if I don’t go and he will, ,which is good 🙂 I know what’s best for ME would be to stay at home and get myself put together. However, I want to do what’s best for HIM and go….but I”m torn. Thoughts?
Post # 3
I think it will be okay if you stay. When I’m in a mood like that, if I’m around people it will just get worse so I don’t think that going is really a good option for you.
I hope that things work out for you and you can figure out where you are going in life.
Post # 4
First off, don’t feel bad about not getting a teaching job. Due to budget cuts teachers are being laid off all over the country. I’ve been teaching for many years and have many friends who were laid off last spring. One friend had been teaching 28 years! (She didn’t have a continuing contract. Just a year to year contract.) Most had been teaching more than 10 years and were laid off. So, it’s not you. It’s this darn economy!
If Darling Husband is okay with it, stay behind. I would think he would understand you need some time. If you feel better in a day or two, maybe you could drive out and join them. If not, I think right now, you need to do what is best for you. However, if this trip involves airfare and money would be lost, I say suck it up and go and steal some time alone for yourself while on the trip.
Post # 5
@2ndtime: No $$ or airfare involved. And Darling Husband doesn’t love it, but he’s ok with it if it’s what I need. I think my real concern is that my IL’s will be pissed and take offense. We were only going for a few days, so I probably wouldn’t meet them there. And I agree the economy sucks. I just thought after being laid off a year ago and substitute teaching and tutoring, I’d be able to find a teaching job 🙁
@MrsSaltWaterTaffy: I do tend to agree that I’m not really in the best place to be around right now. I don’t want to bring everyone down or ruin anyone’s vacation.