- 6 years ago
Please Please need some help.
Going to try and keep this short.
But im having a really hard time with waiting for the proposal.
My BF asked me December 2013 to start looking at rings and decide on what design I like.
Of course I went into a little crazy mode, but then his brother got engaged and we decided as he was older
and had been with his girlfriend for longer we were going to let them have there time.
It was already hard for me and we argued a few times about it , it caused me to feel very insecure.
Coz why would he have told me to look (he knew his brother was getting engaged soon) and a year and a half later Im still waiting.
My main questions is I am so angry or hurt by him at the moment that I struggle to not think about it every second, I am even dreaming about it now.
He knows why I am so hurt as we have discussed it a million times and I really dont want to be a stuck record.
My family also refuse to listen as they think I sound like a stuck record or that its coming soon so I must just relax,
I feel as though no one is actually understanding my point.
I also want to hold onto some diginity that being engaged is not my end all and be all.
How do i shake this hurt ? Coz I feel that I could end up ruining what could be our engagement.
I struggle to shake the hurt because I am a very traditional girl and the engagement has always meant a lot to me.
I feel as though he has not taken the engagement very seriously.
I really dont want to talk to him about it as I feel that the problem or security issue lies within me.
What do I do in the mean time that makes me feel secure?
i really want this day to be everything i dreamed of , but I am scared its too late.