- 4 years ago
So,bees, it’s been a super long and hard year for me. It started out so happily, fairly newly engaged, elated, and in love. . If you’ve followed along with any of my wedding bee saga, sadly all the happy ended rather quickly and the relationship between me and Fiance died a slow and painful death, to put it mildly. Well recently, as some of you fantastically supportive and sweet bees know, I finally found the courage to end it for good this time. It took me a while I guess to realize that somewhere in this world, there’s a man who will love me the way I am, and wouldn’t ever dream of hurting me, or lying to me. During our last “fight ” He said to me that he’d only asked to marry me to appease me and my family, and had never intended on following through with it. Whenever I’d ask about beginning to plan anything wedding related, he’d either change the subject or string me along with lines like “let’s just enjoy being engaged a while” or ” we have plenty of time to do that” etc. .. y’all get the picture. …. it hurt… still does. …. sooooo much! I know it’s for the best, but damn, 6 years together, and bone of it apparently was real. That’s what bothers me the most probably. .. idk!
Anyway, to the point of the thread here. ..I took off my engagement ring, and idk what I’m gonna do with it, but I bought myself a promise ring. Sounds silly to some maybe, but I look at it and remember that there’s better out there somewhere for me, to always remember my worth, and to never allow myself to be abused or mistreated again, to finish nursing school, to promise to myself and my children these things. People buy and wear promise rings for all sorts of reasons/promises, and I found one I thought didn’t absolutely look like an engagement ring for certain on sight, but have found that since wearing it on my left hand, it keeps some of the “vulture” type men, who all know that Fiance and I just split, from hitting on me at work! (Tiny town, everyone knows everyone else’s business)
I got to chatting with a gf about the ring the other day, and after telling me out wasa foolish purchase, she’s opinionated, with no verbal filter, btw, and she asked me what kind of ring it’s considered. Cluster/sol/halo/composite.. Etc. .. what do y’all think? It came from Walmart, and is 14k white gold, .5ctw . And do you think it’s a silly idea to wear/ foolish sentiment? She seems to thinki shouldn’t wear anything at all because it’ll just remind me of him. …. too many questions. ..I know but you ladies are definitely the ones to ask, and I absolutely know won’t spare the truth.