- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2015
Time feels as though it is evaporating before my very eyes. Even though realistically, I still have lots of it.
When we got engaged last October we had 20 months to plan a wedding. That’s LOTS of time, right?
After what feels like mere moments, we are now fast approaching 10 months to go. It’s all starting to sink in and feel very real and very very soon. Several of my friends got married in the lady few weeks and I remember when their weddings seemed a ways away too. And now bam.. Over.
The faster time goes and the closer it gets, the more I feel totally underprepared and overwhelmed.
We are keeping things simple, casual and fun. It’s not going to be a fancy affair of any sort, more of a big family joining party with music and games and food and lots and lots of love to go around!
And yet it seems so daunting. Hosting almost 200 people is a seriously daunting task.. Especially when you’re supposed to look pretty all day to boot! I’m a bit of a control freak, so you better believe a planner is out of the question. I have a hard time taking my hands out of things. I like to orchestrate things so I know how they will run.
It just suddenly feels so real that I have to start letting some of the planning go. Delegate to all the eager women in my life because.. Well I cant do it all, not at this rate anyways! I need to start actually getting some stuff done.
I had a dream last night where my wedding was happening and my dress wasn’t even altered :O it was a terrifying moment, even for a dream! I woke up suddenly feeling so underprepared and like I need someone to crack the whip!
The problem is, I’m all hands on deck at my new job and I’m stretched pretty thin as far as my emotional and physical self not to mention sheer time. Most days, the thought of going home and planning a wedding as well is just plain old not on the table. Learning how to manage this much stuff at once just doesn’t feel ideal most days. I want to spend my home time relaxing, not organizing a grand old party!
Anyone else feeling the stall? It’s like.. I know I need to get this show on the road.. But can’t it be tomorrow??