- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
My husband and I have been married a year. Before our wedding we decided to wait to have children for a while. That “while” was never really defined; we just figured we would wait until we felt we were ready. We are currently renting and saving for our first home. Our budget will only allow us to buy a home that needs some work so we are expecting re-model costs on top of the purchase costs. We have money in savings and both have stable jobs but little credit history which makes getting a loan difficult. At this point we might be looking at another year or 2 until we can get a loan.
I’m 24 and my husband is 26, we both want to start a family while we’re in our 20s. Baby fever big time over here DH melts whenever he sees our niece, or any other baby for that matter. He’s always dropping hints that he wants a baby & I’ve talked to him about it and he feels that we should leave it up to God and trust that He will provide for us. I feel torn because on one hand I would love to trust and let God take the reins. On the other hand though, I feel that getting pregnant now would be irresponsible. Our current rental is TINY, no space for a baby & it has a serious mold issue. (that’s a whole different story) I don’t want to get pregnant while under this lease due to the mold issue, and if we are planning to buy and remodel a house-how are we going to do that while I’m pregnant or while we have a tiny infant.
I’m just not sure I can handle all of this at once! & I’m not sure our checking account can either!
I feel guilty that I’m not more trusting of God’s plan for us & I feel alone because my husband seems to think everything will just work itself out without any effort on our part. We have free will & I believe it is our responsibility to be responsible and to make wise decisions. I want to trust God and his timing, I’m just having a hard time discerning whent that is?
I really need some advice/support in this. Thank you for listening.