- 4 years ago
- Wedding: January 2014
I dont know what it is..well I think I do. He has asked at least 5 different times over the years (13), and we have even seperated a few times ( living together for 7). this time I beleive him and we have been wonderful for and to one another for the past 4 years. I just cant shake this feeling that he just isnt…idk.
We…no I set a date for January 18. He wants me to pick out my ering..:(, shopping for that almost eneded in an argument. He recently saw his closest male freind, and when he came home. i asked him if he told his friend that we were engaged. He said no. so I asked him, if it was ok to tell people, of course his like..yes. We dont talk about plans or anything wedding related. After trying the past few weeks, I gave up, and just asked him to at least give me 6 months advance noticed to plan something. He just laughed and said ok, but by hte end of the year. (UgH) His so nonchalant about it..
idk… Im not excited, I started planning, then stoppped.
I guess its not really fun for me not having to someone to share it with. I feel like Im finally getting the kitchen redone..UgH!
Sorry just really needed to vent…