Post # 1
Why do I come on here & want to read about all the wonderful bees who are having or getting ready to have their babies? I have been doing really well, but with Olivia’s original due date approaching on August 19th I’m overwhelmed with sadness & loss. I’m supposed to be 38 weeks & 3 days! I’m supposed to be excited about seeing my baby girl soon, not trying to deal with her loss all over again 4 months later. I am envious of my girls who were in the Summer/Early Fall posts…. I want to be huge, bloated, & uncomfortable! I want to be nervous about becoming a parent for the first time. I want my baby girl Olivia to be alive!
Thank you for letting me get that out.
Praying for healthy deliveries to all my girls!
Post # 3
Aww Shelby, I am sorry you are going through this tough time. I think its normal that around your EDD to start feeling all the emotions all over again. It is totally not fair that you don’t have a LO in your arms but you do have a sweet girl in your memory.
Always feel free to vent here. Its always good for those of us complaining about being huge and uncomfortable that we should be very thankful.
Post # 4
I’m so sorry that you are feeling such terrible sadness and heartache. Don’t worry about needing to vent, we’re here for you when you need us!
Post # 5
Hugs, I imagine this must be a rough time for you. You can always vent to us here, though, and you can definitely talk about Olivia all you want.
Post # 6
I am sorry for your loss.
Post # 7
@shelbifox15: I am so sorry for your loss. Those words seem so tiny and helpless, but thats all that I have to offer. I cannot imagine the pain you are going through!! You are so strong just to be able to post that and get your feelings out there. I think its great that you are able to vent!! We are all here and listening for when you need it.
Post # 8
I am sorry again for your loss. I have often heard of renewed sadness as the due date approaches…I know someone who was due the end of this month and she is dreading it. I think that day will always be hard- please talk to us here if you need us.
Post # 9
Thank you everyone. I had a breakdown yesterday out of the blue by just glancing at the calender. It hit me like a ton of bricks! I called my husband & just sobbed that I wanted our baby & felt so cheated out of everything. I feel better today but am keeping an open mind to what & how I will feel in the upcoming weeks. We scheduled a trip out of state for next week b/c I told him I didn’t want to be at the house at that time. We did this back in April & I’m glad. I think being at home when we were supposed to be bringing Olivia home would be horrible. So we are going to Colorado & I will hike up a mountain & look at the huge sky & talk to my baby girl & tell her how much we love her & miss her!
Thanks again Ladies!
Post # 10
Sweetie, I know exactly how you feel. Moose’s due date is so hard for me, especially the first time. It’s wonderful that you and your husband are doing something special though because it will help a little. Olivia will always be a missing piece in your life; it’s important to remember that you’re living and she’d want you to be happy.