- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
Thats what my sister told me today as we got home from the mall..and honestly that really hurt me when she said that. I have always been known as the fun awesome person who always smiles but lately I really try my best to keep a smile on my face. Today I ended up wearing something a little ” to long “, which I didnt realize how messy it looked until I was at the mall [ to me atleast ]– and that REALLY annoyed me and put me in the 😐 mood. So her Fiance comes and I was okay with him, not super friendly but wanted to get the hell outa there as soon as possible, cuz yes- I dont want to hang with my sister and her fiance since we ALREADY finished ALL our shopping and literally had nothing to do there.. [ he came 10 minutes after we were done ] — I ended up leaving and going home with my brother. Anywho, she came home and told me that lately I have been depressed and wanted to know whats up.. I was like Im fine? She tells me it could be the stress.. Yes lately, I know that I havent bee the happiest little chipmunk on the block…
- dont work
- dont see my Fiance
- parents always fighting
- most of my friends barely call since they have gotten busy with thier marital life and parenting.
- have nothing to do with my life but worry about stupid silly stuff.
- and waiting patiently for these stupid 4 weeks to pass by so I can FINALLY leave and be with my Fiance and marry him that week!
I dont see or feel that there is anything that can give me a push to be happy[ ier ] like before… not now at least.. and it scares me to think that I might suprise my Fiance with this ” non smiley annoyed fiance’ who he hasnt seen for a year..I
This is really stupid post Im sure, I just wanted to vent thats all 🙁 I really hope that this mood changes soon and that I feel happier, atleast when Im finally with my Fiance. Gah.